I want to scream

[Lostmind92]

Who am i, where do i belong.
I dont want this i dont want to be strong.

I dont want this inner pain that consumes my mind.
I dont want this sadness that makes me blind.

I hate that im breathing i hate that im even alive.
I hate that i have to keep it all inside.

I hate the fact im still here.
I hate that my head fills with fear.

I dont want to sit here with all this in my head.
Why cant i choose to be dead.

Why cant i sleep forever like loved ones ive lost
Why does killing myself have a cost.

Im not happy i cry at night alone.
I seek adive on suicide whilst on my phone.

It wont take long they say i wont feel anything.
Life isnt for me im ashamed to say they win.

My mum is my best friend.
But im ok to see that end.

Since being a child its been hard to see whats out there.
Being born into a home where my farther doesnt even care.

Knowing really i wasnt a wanted child.
Feelings of my past ive hidden and filed.

I know its sad to say goodbye.
But please dont be sad please dont cry.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that this life can be unbearable when you suffer so much. I just want to be free from existence as well, I am also tired of it all. Life just seems to be endless pain all for the sake of it. I'm sorry that you have had to endure so much in your life.