truthb4told
less than human
- Jan 23, 2026
- 3
everything i bring on comes with shame and pain, it sounds cliche when i say it but i genuinely feel like everything i touch wilts.
my friends and family is struggling, all i bring is another burden one after another, yet i can never seem to stop. the plague of the 'real me' infects and destroys everyone i love and again and again i hit them when they fall and break and cry and yet they'd sit and comfort me telling me ive done nothing wrong, that i can redeem myself; that im human.
but its so far from the truth, and sometimes i pity their naivety.
ive gagged at the very thought of myself, how disgusting and twisted my imagination is of other people and how much i just beg and demand more. i beg to be hit and trashed but to be hugged and comforted, now that my debts for those to stood up with how i was are long pass overdue it's better i pay with my life, something "irreplaceable"
so when i die, i hope everyone i love will finally hate me. i hope i can end their suffering: that will be my last purpose.
i want to go to college, i want to live as anyone at my age normally would but when im surrounded by the people who raised me calling me disgusting and all sorts of names, its kinda hard to get it out of your head. (but its not like theyre wrong)
maybe im a pussy and a coward, and though ive faced my dues its not enough.
i know my friends will hate me for this post but i hope they know the creature they let in.
before the school year ends, ill bulletproof my suicide plan that i created during sep 2025 and die in the school bathrooms so a limited amount of people will see my deceased body. until then, ill try to distance myself from everyone i love, they dont deserve to be around someone less than human like me. no will have to suffer anymore
my friends and family is struggling, all i bring is another burden one after another, yet i can never seem to stop. the plague of the 'real me' infects and destroys everyone i love and again and again i hit them when they fall and break and cry and yet they'd sit and comfort me telling me ive done nothing wrong, that i can redeem myself; that im human.
but its so far from the truth, and sometimes i pity their naivety.
ive gagged at the very thought of myself, how disgusting and twisted my imagination is of other people and how much i just beg and demand more. i beg to be hit and trashed but to be hugged and comforted, now that my debts for those to stood up with how i was are long pass overdue it's better i pay with my life, something "irreplaceable"
so when i die, i hope everyone i love will finally hate me. i hope i can end their suffering: that will be my last purpose.
i want to go to college, i want to live as anyone at my age normally would but when im surrounded by the people who raised me calling me disgusting and all sorts of names, its kinda hard to get it out of your head. (but its not like theyre wrong)
maybe im a pussy and a coward, and though ive faced my dues its not enough.
i know my friends will hate me for this post but i hope they know the creature they let in.
before the school year ends, ill bulletproof my suicide plan that i created during sep 2025 and die in the school bathrooms so a limited amount of people will see my deceased body. until then, ill try to distance myself from everyone i love, they dont deserve to be around someone less than human like me. no will have to suffer anymore
