I want to do it tonight

[Rosieroo17]

I really want to do it tonight. The pain I'm feeling is so bad. My husband has just decided he does not want to be with me anymore. I cannot deal with this and the pain it brings.

I have thought about partial hanging as it seem the only thing I'll have access to.

Would doing it with a rope or something tied to a door handle work ?

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I'm sorry you are in such pain. I wish I could help you

 

[Erase.myself]

Sending you so so many hugs. I am so sorry that you are in so much pain. It's so hard when those we love walk away.

 

[Rosieroo17]

Well I obviously did ctb but I really want to. The emotional pain is unreal and I don't want to go through it.
I desperately want to ctb now but don't know how. I know no one can tell me the best and quickest way to to it.
I thought hanging may be the easiest but I'm scared how and if I fail
I would do SN but no idea how to get tot and all the other bits that go with it

 

[Notabadguy]

You should try to calm, but if you still want to CTB, there is SN guide in the Resources Section.

 

[Whatshouldmynamebe]

Could also read about in the PPH found through the wiki section of this site

 

[breachingthevoid]

Probably best if you just take a little time to think things through and let everything settle a bit. While I may support your right to choose what you do with your own life, I will say that doing anything in a state of panic, anxiety, etc., isn't a good thing. You need to know that you 100% want this, you've finished all of your business here and you are ready to go into this without any regrets. If you give it some time and you still feel this way in a few months, then check through the resources and make the best decision as to "how" for you. Don't choose a method just because you want to do it quickly and don't have access to what's really your best choice at this time. Maybe go and see your Doctor...let that person know how you are feeling and see if he/she can set you in the right direction for something that may help you a little...anti anxiety, depression medication, etc. It's worth a try. Sending lots of love.