I WANT THE PAIN TO STOP

[StarryStarry]

I hate the mornings. I've sat here for six months looking outside at the world. Alienated by lack of a job. I hear the people who do the lawns come on Tuesday every Tuesday I hate it. I hate my life. I want the pain to go away. I have nothing if I don't have a job. That is how I define myself - by a job. Without a job I am NOTHING. I can't talk to anyone else except you all. I'm so sorry I' keep repeating myself. I've now taken to drink myself into not feeling anything. I wish I could just close my eyes and die. I hate my life, I hate myself for being such a failure.

 

[Wrennie]

I hate the mornings. I've sat here for six months looking outside at the world. Alienated by lack of a job. I hear the people who do the lawns come on Tuesday every Tuesday I hate it. I hate my life. I want the pain to go away. I have nothing if I don't have a job. That is how I define myself - by a job. Without a job I am NOTHING. I can't talk to anyone else except you all. I'm so sorry I' keep repeating myself. I've now taken to drink myself into not feeling anything. I wish I could just close my eyes and die. I hate my life, I hate myself for being such a failure.

I feel you, I truly do. I used to down an entire bottle of vodka before bed every night just to get a wink of sleep.

I'm bedbound, so I only really talk to the people on here as well. They're the only ones who understand.

You're not a failure. This world is what failed you.

I wish I could take away your pain. If you ever want to talk I'm here.

 

[FuneralCry]

I know that it can be unbearable when you are in so much pain. I understand that living a life you hate can be horrible. This life is so cruel and unfair and I'm sorry you have to go through this. I wish you the best.