brnggundottxt
Member
- Mar 12, 2022
- 48
A tragic death and two planned weddings later, I guess I'm gonna see everybody. Every single one of them. The same people collaborated with money laundering crooks to ruin my entire life. They literally all gaslit me as I was getting literal death threats, while cars were running me off the road and while people were throwing bottles at my head. I really hope they got paid to drive me in the country into a trap.
These even continuously ask me if I'm ok too. wtf? I don't hate them I just rather not see any of them anymore. I'm just gunna be wasted at all family events and remain polite like some bellboy trying to hide the fact that he's absolutely shitfaced on the job.
Anyways about suicide: I've literally been at least ideating suicide since I was very young. Never thought my life would be fucked up so bad that I might actually have to do it. My very promising life will be snuffed out by crooks who are as dumb as rocks (that's a lot coming from me being a dumbass myself)
They can't even begin to understand what depression or mental health is. The only thing they live for is to steal oxygen, make as much money as they can, (third world scraps) pair off and die.
I don't know. I might even survive this period to spite everyone and live a very long life.
The way I plan my death requires a very long trip into the wilderness, maybe overland or by plane, finding a way to ditch a guide if there is one and just become one with the trees and the mud and the mosquitos.
I think this might be too contrived and might just delay any travel to the great beyond or a great deafening silence... nothingness. my problem is I DON'T WANT TO BE FOUND. Let them burry my shoes and my empties.
I tried prescribed drugs to take the edge off while I'm actively being sabotaged and getting death threats. (they're too pussy to actually do it) I used to like getting drunk and going out about 2 A.m. or so to tempt death. I've reverted back to doing that now, just to see who actually has the balls to stop chatting and take action.
How would you suggest I disappear?
These even continuously ask me if I'm ok too. wtf? I don't hate them I just rather not see any of them anymore. I'm just gunna be wasted at all family events and remain polite like some bellboy trying to hide the fact that he's absolutely shitfaced on the job.
Anyways about suicide: I've literally been at least ideating suicide since I was very young. Never thought my life would be fucked up so bad that I might actually have to do it. My very promising life will be snuffed out by crooks who are as dumb as rocks (that's a lot coming from me being a dumbass myself)
They can't even begin to understand what depression or mental health is. The only thing they live for is to steal oxygen, make as much money as they can, (third world scraps) pair off and die.
I don't know. I might even survive this period to spite everyone and live a very long life.
The way I plan my death requires a very long trip into the wilderness, maybe overland or by plane, finding a way to ditch a guide if there is one and just become one with the trees and the mud and the mosquitos.
I think this might be too contrived and might just delay any travel to the great beyond or a great deafening silence... nothingness. my problem is I DON'T WANT TO BE FOUND. Let them burry my shoes and my empties.
I tried prescribed drugs to take the edge off while I'm actively being sabotaged and getting death threats. (they're too pussy to actually do it) I used to like getting drunk and going out about 2 A.m. or so to tempt death. I've reverted back to doing that now, just to see who actually has the balls to stop chatting and take action.
How would you suggest I disappear?
