I used to be a bit more scared…

[Still Flutter Girl]

I used to be a bit more scared of dealing with any pain that SN might briefly cause…but I've been thinking that maybe it's just on par with the normal cramps I deal with, or even something like Plan B (never taken it, but people do everyday)!

I think the 3 biggest concerns getting in my way are:
-fear of pain
-fear of failure
-fear of not knowing if there's anything after "this."

Any tips for getting past these issues? I can't wait around to become homeless/be in more pain/etc. The things I've read overwhelmingly support the fact that, if alone, 2 cups of SN should work…even if they come up a bit.

I think I just need to get past this late-stage SI. My life isn't livable, & it would only get worse if allowed to continue.

 

[Lebensunwertes]

There is no easy way of overriding your survival instinct. You need to think through thoroughly every aspect of your life, the risks you are taking and the outcomes. Only after you are sure that ending life is an absolute best way to resolve your problems is when you should pursue it.

I don't recall any users who failed their attempt reporting pain during NaNO2 method. There some discomfort in form of nausea, increased heartbeat, feeling of chest tightness to be expected, but it is not painful.

If you follow the protocol correctly and have the required pharmaceuticals the success rate with this method should be rather high. The main goal should be to avoid vomiting and to choose a location where you will be undisturbed.

The last one is a tough nut to crack. There are many interpretations of what might be on the other side from afterlife to complete abyss and lack of consciousness. My understanding is that whatever comes after this life cannot be compared and there is no heaven/hell. If my consciousness ceases to exist after the death of my brain then I will have nothing to worry about, because I will be gone. Kind of when you pull the plug on PC - the RAM memory gets flushed and it's gone. Doesn't exist. If there is some next level of consciousness after death then I doubt we can analyze it in the same way that we analyze this current life.

 

[london3]

I used to be a bit more scared of dealing with any pain that SN might briefly cause…but I've been thinking that maybe it's just on par with the normal cramps I deal with, or even something like Plan B (never taken it, but people do everyday)!

I think the 3 biggest concerns getting in my way are:
-fear of pain
-fear of failure
-fear of not knowing if there's anything after "this."

Any tips for getting past these issues? I can't wait around to become homeless/be in more pain/etc. The things I've read overwhelmingly support the fact that, if alone, 2 cups of SN should work…even if they come up a bit.

I think I just need to get past this late-stage SI. My life isn't livable, & it would only get worse if allowed to continue.

In terms of pain it is just discomfort and 7/10 in term of peacefulness. If you follow the rules and take the required steps you should be fine. Many people have used SN successfully.

Failure only happens normally if you get caught or do not drink enough SN while following the rules and do not get disturbed for 4 hours.

No one knows what is the afterlife but you will surely find peace from any pain you have in this life.

 

[Still Flutter Girl]

Thanks so much to those that have responded thus far

I should everything necessary aside from the SN because my health is so poor. Time to start searching through old meds and get to testing that SN.

I hope there's something more after this, because I can't understand having fought through so much for nothing. But at this point, pure nothingness would work WAY better than all this pain, fatigue, isolation, & more.

 

[FuneralCry]

It can be very difficult to overcome the SI, but of course many people have ctb. I believe that many people manage to overcome it when the pain of living gets unbearable for them and they are desperate to escape their situation. It is just a feeling they have that they know that it is time to leave and they are certain about their decision with no more doubts.

I personally do not believe that there is an afterlife, but the way that I see it, we cannot control what happens after death. We will experience whatever is after this eventually someday. Death is inevitable for us all, I see life as being such a temporary and meaningless experience. I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. I hope that you find relief from your suffering.

 

[Still Flutter Girl]

I was here from back when Quix77 ctb not too long ago.

I'm really hoping to get to that point of preparedness (including emotionally) by the time I'm hoping to ctb, myself.