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Sadness20

Sadness20

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Nov 1, 2021
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I always have these small moment where i think its going better. I might have a future after all.
But then it comes back, again and again and again. I'm so sick of this. So tired. I just want to overdose. This is all too much
 
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Eternal🌈Rainbow

Eternal🌈Rainbow

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Apr 2, 2022
240
I also have those little sparks of hope throughout the day, most days. But as you say, then it all comes back down again and I'm left with my sad reality and possibilities and know there's nothing I can do.
I'm sorry you're also feeling this, it's soul-crushing.
 
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Sadness20

Sadness20

Experienced
Nov 1, 2021
277
I also have those little sparks of hope throughout the day, most days. But as you say, then it all comes back down again and I'm left with my sad reality and possibilities and know there's nothing I can do.
I'm sorry you're also feeling this, it's soul-crushing.
Yes, it hurts so much. Hugs to you. I dont even feel like standing up right now. I am not sure I CAN stand up. I just want to sit and sit and sit. Just staring at the wall.
 
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Marine

Marine

*~ 絶対に 全てを取り戻させてもらう ~*
Jul 5, 2020
680
This is the worst, yes... 😭

I've been unable to go outside for a billion years now and I can't forgive myself for missing out on June and meeting people or my body being destroyed but I don't know where to find help... 😰
 
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Sadness20

Sadness20

Experienced
Nov 1, 2021
277
This is the worst, yes... 😭

I've been unable to go outside for a billion years now and I can't forgive myself for missing out on June and meeting people or my body being destroyed but I don't know where to find help... 😰
I'm at a mental health rehab and we are supposed to go to therapies but i just cant bring myself to go to them.
 
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Marine

Marine

*~ 絶対に 全てを取り戻させてもらう ~*
Jul 5, 2020
680
I'm at a mental health rehab and we are supposed to go to therapies but i just cant bring myself to go to them.
I've freed myself from toxic psychiatry forever. I'm done with their torture and nonsense. I need real help.
 
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Eternal🌈Rainbow

Eternal🌈Rainbow

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Apr 2, 2022
240
Yes, it hurts so much. Hugs to you. I dont even feel like standing up right now. I am not sure I CAN stand up. I just want to sit and sit and sit. Just staring at the wall.
I get you. One night a couple months ago I had a friend talk to me on telegram through my bedtime routine (going to the bathroom, have a glass of water, getting in bed, etc.) just because I was so paralysed in horrific emotional pain that I wasn't able to get up from the sofa and move my body.

Many hugs and peace to you too. I'm so sorry for all of us people in this world suffering so much. It really saddens me.
💞
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,593
I'm sorry that you are going through this. I understand the feeling of being tired of everything and I know that it is awful when things just get worse. It seems like in this life there is no escape from suffering. Living really is so painful.
 
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Baemo

Baemo

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Jan 21, 2022
25
I feel you. I always thought my life would be better. Unfortunately it is worse everyday, but I still have some hope left, which sucks.
 

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