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tired of living

tired of living

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Sep 23, 2021
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I received test results that are the final push over the edge. I have a few more classes but I think I'll probably go tonight. I don't even know why I'm posting this, I just want someone to know I guess. I can't say it anywhere else and I don't really have any friends irl to talk about normal stuff with either.

I've been holding off because im scared I'll fail and the medicine i hope to use are for my migraines and it will be a pain to get back lol
I'm also just afraid I'll fail and have to live with the aftermath. I've failed before and I can't live with that again. I'll just have to be sure it will be complete
 
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Dot

Info abt typng styl on prfle.
Sep 26, 2021
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B awre tht medcne o.ds oftn ld 2 failre. Wld b wrth thnkng thru ur plns.
 
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tired of living

tired of living

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Sep 23, 2021
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B awre tht medcne o.ds oftn ld 2 failre. Wld b wrth thnkng thru ur plns.
I know, I just don't think i have any other way to do it. This medicine is a relatively common one used for ods so the chances are better than something like ibuprofen
 
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NothingElseMatters

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Mar 30, 2020
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Wish i could go tonight aswell.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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Failing an attempt does sound awful. We all deserve the option of a peaceful, reliable exit, nobody should have to resort to methods that could fail. I understand it is hard to carry on when everything is hopeless. I wish you the best. I hope you find peace.
 
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4eyebiped

Mage
Dec 28, 2019
567
I recommend trying your best to hold off, plan, research and verify the success rate of this chosen method, if you haven't already. If/when you choose to go, I rather it not come with a high chance of regrettable outcomes. Best wishes whatever path you pick.
 
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Quiet Desperation

Lonely wanderer
Dec 7, 2020
204
I'm living in the aftermath so I understand how you feel. I'm sorry you're suffering and I hope that you find some peace whatever you choose.
 
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dss262

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Nov 23, 2021
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I've found that it's better to look for a very reliable method rather than the most convenient. You should look up the the lethal amount, the effects it will have and time it takes.
 
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eternalmelancholy

waiting for the bus
Mar 24, 2021
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I've found that it's better to look for a very reliable method rather than the most convenient. You should look up the the lethal amount, the effects it will have and time it takes.

The most reliable methods are also the most SI inducing I think. Well besides N but that is the rare exception. I completely agree that people should take their attempts seriously. Methods like hanging and jumping are the most popular for a reason. Because they work. Even if it is scary as hell. What other options do people have? I never knew something like N existed before joining this site. Society does a real good job at censoring all the best methods like N or inert gas.
 
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dss262

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Nov 23, 2021
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The most reliable methods are also the most SI inducing I think. Well besides N but that is the rare exception. I completely agree that people should take their attempts seriously. Methods like hanging and jumping are the most popular for a reason. Because they work. Even if it is scary as hell. What other options do people have? I never knew something like N existed before joining this site. Society does a real good job at censoring all the best methods like N or inert gas.
I'm now curious about inert gas
 
Zinz

Zinz

Wizard
Apr 28, 2021
638
I wouldn't rush into it if there's a high chance of failure.
I hope you find peace regardless.
 
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