I think there is no life left in me

[R_N]

Even if I live I feel completely dead. I am just rotting, waiting to die.

Anyone else feel the same?

 

[TheEndof]

Even if I live I feel completely dead. I am just rotting, waiting to die.

Anyone else feel the same?

Definitely. I wish circumstances were different so I could end it much sooner because living this way seems utterly useless; everything I do seems like a waste of time. I often feel like there's literally no point in doing anything because I still feel the same afterward and the results have all been the same in the end. Sorry you feel similarly. It sucks.

 

[PartingGlass]

I think a lot of us do. I feel dead inside most of the time. Very rarely I feel like I might be able to change things and possibly even get better, but I just don't have the will to get up and make it happen. It probably wouldn't work anyways, nothing would change.

 

[Darkbrett]

My only comfort Is my choice to ctb whenever I want.

 

[Final Escape]

Even if I live I feel completely dead. I am just rotting, waiting to die.

Anyone else feel the same?

I felt that way the last several days because I had heart break but I'm coming out if it now. It depends on the day. I know this is not what u mean. Yes I've felt this way and u can slip into deep despair where u cannot function hardly at all and you wish u were dead. I'm sorry u are in this terrible place. Is there anything u can do to feel better? Like go somewhere near nature?

 

[R_N]

I felt that way the last several days because I had heart break but I'm coming out if it now. It depends on the day. I know this is not what u mean. Yes I've felt this way and u can slip into deep despair where u cannot function hardly at all and you wish u were dead. I'm sorry u are in this terrible place. Is there anything u can do to feel better? Like go somewhere near nature?

Not really, not anymore. Even distractions don't help.

 

[Squiddy]

My only comfort Is my choice to ctb whenever I want.

That's mine too

 

[Xaphous]

Personally I cant relate to anyone unless they've ensured atleast 8 years of solitary confinement

 

[Darkbrett]

Personally I cant relate to anyone unless they've ensured atleast 8 years of solitary confinement

That's rough.

 

[Final Escape]

Personally I cant relate to anyone unless they've ensured atleast 8 years of solitary confinement

No contact with other people at all?

 

[Xaphous]

No contact with other people at all?

No I dont have one conversation per year for the last almost 11 years. Before that im also isolated just less.

 

[Final Escape]

No I dont have one conversation per year for the last almost 11 years. Before that im also isolated just less.

How have u stayed sane? I know for me if I go too many days without human contact I start to go insane.

 

[R_N]

Tbh I prefer being alone. And I would rather be a complete recluse than not being able to sleep even half an hour per night. Not sleeping is just progressive dementia.

And I have plenty of other health issues. Everything is going worse with time.

 

[Xaphous]

How have u stayed sane? I know for me if I go too many days without human contact I start to go insane.

Im not sane, its constant 24/7 torture. Im also a fucking moron because I never knew how to break and I never will.

 

[Final Escape]

Im not sane, its constant 24/7 torture. Im also a fucking moron because I never knew how to break and I never will.

I'm so sorry, are u in a rural town? What do u mean by never knew how to break and never will?

 

[Xaphous]

I'm so sorry, are u in a rural town? What do u mean by never knew how to break and never will?

Never knew how to break isolation. It's too much to get into right now. I explained it already a lot in this site and on other forums years past. I just continually want to express the hurt because Im enduring perpetually no form of expression.

 

[mediocre]

Yes I'm completely dead inside. I haven't seen or talked to anybody besides my mum for a couple of weeks. I am sitting here now writhing in pain. I am being tortured. I just want it to stop.

 

[voyager]

Same. I've never felt as I used to before the mhi, nor did I expect to, but for over a decade now I've also grown more and more numb. It's unpleasant, but it also guards me from being completely miserable. Unfortunately, anhedonia and circumstances are also messing with the few things I still did enjoy. I've always held the belief that life can be beautiful, because it once was and out of habit I'll say that I'd like to relive my life without mhi. But I'm so exhausted now that sometimes the sheer thought of having to relive these years, even with good experiences, scares me. The closer I've come to the end the better. That is something I would've never said before. I've also come to the belief that life is predetermined from the start simply down to circumstance and one's nature, and as such from a certain point onwards is essentially meaningless. As long as one can pursue happiness and self-fulfillment it at least serves a purpose, but if it's only eternal suffering without redemption it becomes completely pointless. If these thoughts continue I'll be dead before I die.

 

[Moonicide]

I feel the same exact way, love. My heart goes out to everyone that is already dead, and are essentially walking corpses. What a terrible way to live... May you all find peace.

 

[Kringle's Curse]

Even if I live I feel completely dead. I am just rotting, waiting to die.

Anyone else feel the same?

You're not alone. I feel that way everyday. I'm so sick of my worthless existence. But yet, here I sit drinking beer everynight. I'm such a piece of human garbage. Somebody kill me!