I Think Next Month Will Be My Last (Just Can't Do This Anymore)

[darksoul999]

I have thought and thought about all the reasons i should keep enduring this endless cycle of pain and suffering..

I just can't do this anymore. My soul feels trapped in a body that expired a long time ago.

I do NOT have the energy to keep doing this.

I am 26, have bipolar 2 & tired of of being tired.

My family will be upset, but they are not having the torturous experience of being me.

Having bipolar 2, i have destroyed my life from the swings of reckless mania + depression that is killing me day by day,

What is the point?

Why must i go on like this?

I am 26, have no kids, no career, never had a GF due to being highly introverted + standoffish.

I have had many chances to have relationships but i always act like I'm not interested because its too much energy be involve myself in that whole experience.

I hope reincarnation is real, fuck just give me a better body!. Let me fucking respawn LOL

I just need to get a few things ready, then hopefully freedom.

 

[Russell1882]

I hope reincarnation is real, fuck just give me a better body!. Let me fucking respawn LOL

I just need to get a few things ready, then hopefully freedom.

Hah, I feel you man - I do have sort of a naive hope that reincarnation is real and I will have more luck next time, couse with this life I lost on day 1 lol.

 

[PeaceSeeker83]

I hear you. As you said, your family are not you.

 

[darksoul999]

Hah, I feel you man - I do have sort of a naive hope that reincarnation is real and I will have more luck next time, couse with this life I lost on day 1 lol.

I hope so. I actually do not devalue life.

I just wish i was given better cards.

I have tired to do the best with the cards i was given but i just don't have the energy anymore.

Maybe my next life, ill come back with at least a fucking Ace in my hands haha.

I hear you. As you said, your family are not you.

correct.

I have a big heart and i hate to do it but i just can't suffer like this.

All the shit that had to line up for me to be in this exact spot, perhaps its fate?

Shit fate, but i know its not all my fault.