Venting I think I’m finally going to do it tonight

[idonntseethepoint]

I've been battling with suicidal thoughts for over a year at this point. Had several attempts this time last year. Tried super hard to recover but stuck and can't move past it.

I know on the surface my life looks perfect. I have a good job, good friends, live in a vibrant city. But I know deep down that I will never get married, never have kids, never do any of the normal things people do. And I don't want to wait around and watch everyone else have it except me.

I know everyone will be shocked and say empty things like "what a waste" when I do it, but I don't want to carry on like this anymore. Tonight might be the night, finally.

 

[September5th]

I get you. It's even worse when you know you fucked up your only change...
In any case, think about it. Give yourself some time and of that's what you actually want, good journey. We'll be here for you.

 

[Weebster]

But this site is fun and the only real thing worth living for.

 

[Endtimes1]

I've been battling with suicidal thoughts for over a year at this point. Had several attempts this time last year. Tried super hard to recover but stuck and can't move past it.

I know on the surface my life looks perfect. I have a good job, good friends, live in a vibrant city. But I know deep down that I will never get married, never have kids, never do any of the normal things people do. And I don't want to wait around and watch everyone else have it except me.

I know everyone will be shocked and say empty things like "what a waste" when I do it, but I don't want to carry on like this anymore. Tonight might be the night, finally.

I read one of your other threads and I really don't think you should CTB.

Start lifting and working out in general, do cool things with your friends and find something you really like in life.

If you improve your physical fitness and your economic and social situation your chance of finding a partner increase dramatically.

Getting used to talking with girls and getting used to getting rejected is the basics for success. When you stop caring as much as before, but still trying, this is when you'll get what you want.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that it has come to this point for you. I understand that it is hard to carry on living when everything feels so hopeless. I wish you relief from suffering in whatever you decide to do.

 

[NG_Kasumi]

I've been battling with suicidal thoughts for over a year at this point. Had several attempts this time last year. Tried super hard to recover but stuck and can't move past it.

I know on the surface my life looks perfect. I have a good job, good friends, live in a vibrant city. But I know deep down that I will never get married, never have kids, never do any of the normal things people do. And I don't want to wait around and watch everyone else have it except me.

I know everyone will be shocked and say empty things like "what a waste" when I do it, but I don't want to carry on like this anymore. Tonight might be the night, finally.

Wishing you a good luck. All of us here knows how we all want a successful escape. Peace ✌.