I think I will go CTB tonight (SN method)

[Jambi]

I have been fasting for more than 6 hours by now, and already have my SN (97.5% purity), cimeditine and metoclopramide. I plan to follow the Stan's stat dose.

I just don't have a scale, I intend to use the table below and 1.5 tablespoons as a measure. Even if it's not the exact 25g, I think it will be enough for my weight (82kg).

If anyone has any suggestions or questions, they are welcome.

 

[mr.smileysad]

why dont you just use 2x more than recommended for your weight

 

[Jambi]

why dont you just use 2x more than recommended for your weight

The recommended for my weight will already be quite imprecise, if I double the dosage it is more likely that I will just puke everything and fail than my body will be able to absorb the amount necessary for the CTB.

 

[aminend]

I think u know every thing about method urself. I just can hope a peaceful death and a better place for u and for myself too. Have a good journey

 

[hʚll]

your plan is good.
i wish you so much peace ♡

 

[Jambi]

I think u know every thing about method urself. I just can hope a peaceful death and a better place for u and for myself too. Have a good journey

I hope I'm successful, I've already postponed my own death for too long...

your plan is good.
i wish you so much peace ♡

Thanks for the kind words, we all deserve it.

 

[hʚll]

I hope I'm successful, I've already postponed my own death for too long...

will you be alone in the place where you are doing it, jambi?
either way we are here, hoping the best for you.

 

[Jambi]

will you be alone in the place where you are doing it, jambi?
either way we are here, hoping the best for you.

Unfortunately not, I live with my parents and my brother. However, I usually stay up late and will take SN late at night, when everyone is already asleep.
They're used to me making noise at night, so I don't think this will be a problem, even if I end up throwing up.
I will take the first dose in the bathroom and wait about 10 minutes to see if I puke, with the second and third already prepared. If all goes well, I'll go to my bed and will cover myself with the sheet.

And again, thank you so much for your words.

 

[hʚll]

Unfortunately not, I live with my parents and my brother. However, I usually stay up late and will take SN late at night, when everyone is already asleep.
They're used to me making noise at night, so I don't think this will be a problem, even if I end up throwing up.
I will take the first dose in the bathroom and wait about 10 minutes to see if I puke, with the second and third already prepared. If all goes well, I'll go to my bed and will cover myself with the sheet.

And again, thank you so much for your words.

i'm really sorry it has come to this. i somehow wish to convey something but my words are poor. so i'll just say simply that i'm thinking about you and hoping you will be in peace soon, i think many that read your thread will be mentally with you. somehow you're not alone. and whatever happens, ss is here with you.
ss group hug (?)

 

[Jambi]

i'm really sorry it has come to this. i somehow wish to convey something but my words are poor. so i'll just say simply that i'm thinking about you and hoping you will be in peace soon, i think many that read your thread will be mentally with you. somehow you're not alone. and whatever happens, ss is here with you.
ss group hug (?)

Thanks, I will update here as soon as it's time for me to take it, probably another 7 or 8 hours from now (where I live the sunset has just started).

My mind somehow wants me to keep moving forward, but just a little more rationalization and I'm reminded of my reasons for CTB.
Hope I can stay strong until there.

 

[hʚll]

okay. if you wish to update, then we will be here with you but don't feel like you have to.

i'm the same. sometimes i get emotional but then i can easily remind myself of the reasons why i want to die. if you think it can help, maybe you could write down why you want to die and think about it during this time you have left...

 

[Nolen]

Is it a good idea to take it in the bathroom? What if you pass out or can't make it back to your room.

 

[Jambi]

okay. if you wish to update, then we will be here with you but don't feel like you have to.

i'm the same. sometimes i get emotional but then i can easily remind myself of the reasons why i want to die. if you think it can help, maybe you could write down why you want to die and think about it during this time you have left...

These things are just spinning around in my head right now, so taking notes isn't all that necessary. But I appreciate the concern.

Is it a good idea to take it in the bathroom? What if you pass out or can't make it back to your room.

The bathroom is right next to my bedroom. If I don't vomit and start to get sleepy, it won't be more than a few seconds before I can lie down and cover myself.

 

[Huntfish34]

I'm sorry it has come down to this for you,. I wish you nothing but the best in whatever may happen. You are quite brave for attempting this,. So take some solace in that at the very least.

Thoughts and prayers to you,

Butch

 

[Nolen]

The bathroom is right next to my bedroom. If I don't vomit and start to get sleepy, it won't be more than a few seconds before I can lie down and cover myself.

Okay good then have a safe journey and see you on the other side.

 

[Snake of Eden]

Please keep us upto date if you dont mind about once you take the sn how are your sensations are like.

 

[Jambi]

Please keep us upto date if you dont mind about once you take the sn how are your sensations are like.

I will try to do this for at least the first 10 minutes if everything works out (10 minutes is the average time that people who have taken 25g of SN begin to lose consciousness).

Unfortunately, after that I will have to logout of the site and delete my web history to protect the forum and all the information that is compiled here.

Hope this will helps someone in the future just as it helped me.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I will try to do this for at least the first 10 minutes if everything works out (10 minutes is the average time that people who have taken 25g of SN begin to lose consciousness).

Unfortunately, after that I will have to logout of the site and delete my web history to protect the forum and all the information that is compiled here.

Hope this will helps someone in the future just as it helped me.

Thank you. I really want to know how bad it is the time between taking sn and passing out. I know there is discomfort but i want to know to which degree