I Think I Made A Mistake

[avoid_slow_death]

So, my plan was to CTB at midnight New Years Eve/Day. I never went forward with it because I felt that it would greatly hurt one friend and push another to do the same, so I stayed for that reason. Even made a post on FB saying goodbye to everyone. Of course, I got a few pleas to stay and even a visit from my sister which was a surprise.

But a few days later...nothing. It all went back to how it has been. I'm a ghost in everyone's life. An afterthought. I should have done it when I planned because frankly? My presence or lack thereof makes no real difference to anyone. Sure there will likely be mourning and people saying they should have done something more, but that will fade quickly and people will forget within weeks if not days. It's truly time. This proves it beyond a shadow of a doubt as I am practically dead to everyone already....

 

[FuneralCry]

Many people are selfish and they only care when it directly affects themselves. I see it as best to stay away from others. I'm sorry you are in this situation. Whatever happens, I wish you the best.

 

[ashfall]

This really breaks my heart - I'm so sorry you have to go through this. I don't know about your situation but I feel in my life that some people only say they care or pretend to because it makes them look bad if they don't. Like they only care as long as it requires zero work or commitment from them. That you literally had the courage to share with everyone just how low you are and after a couple of days they've forgotten kills me. God I really hate people sometimes.