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Marigoldflower1984

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May 9, 2025
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So next Sunday is going to be my second time attempting to leave this sick body and this time I'm going to try by CO/grill and I think I have the right materials but hopefully someone can let me know if there's anything I'm missing or not.

And I know I ask a lot of questions on here, but I don't have family - they have all passed on, nor do I have friends, I mean not close friends. I have "acqauintance-friends," and of those, I only have two. And despite my past weekend failure, this is the first time I've ever attempted ending myself and crossing over into the afterlife, so I just want to make sure I don't want to fail again. I want to go home, to be with my family and friends that are waiting for me. I'm tired of the physical pain and the emotional pain. So...with that being said, here's the set-up I have:

- The tent:

Tent


The lup charcoal - I plan to buy two bags of these so I'm thinking that should be more than enough:

Charcoal


Then the grill:

Grill

I think this grill should be big enough to put both bags of lump charcoal in it.


The lighters (I plan to buy two packs):

Lighters

Then the carbon monoxide meter:

Co2 monitor


So I'm hoping I have the right set-up with all this, but I'm not sure, what do you all think?
 
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MyMomWasMyLife

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May 2, 2026
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I don't see where that monitor measures for carbon monoxide (CO).
 
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Marigoldflower1984

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May 9, 2025
21
I dont know but BUMP.
Good luck!

LOL does bump mean it's a good set-up or.....? lol
I don't see where that monitor measures for carbon monoxide (CO).

Oh darn, I thought CO2 was carbon monoxide, it's carbon dioxide.....so that's something I have to replace lol.
The highest ppm onitor I can find goes up to 99,000 PPM's so I don't know if that's good enough or not.
 
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dagger_of_truth

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Apr 7, 2026
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Have you set up that tent before to see how ventilated it is? I would be afraid of the polyester melting before enough carbon monoxide is produced, with that kind of grill in the tent. I think the only way to know for sure what would happen with how you intend to do it, is to do a test run without you being inside. This is the best thread I've seen with people who have tried using carbon monoxide from charcoal:

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/carbon-monoxide-experience-share.240172/
 
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Marigoldflower1984

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May 9, 2025
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Oh no, that is a great idea though! I'll this weekend and give a fiollow-up of whether it will withstand heat or not. Thanks so much for the tip!
 

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