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razor543

razor543

quetiapine <3
Dec 23, 2024
39
On the 16th of May I took sn. The police had been called because they knew I had it and I panicked and took it. I started turning blue but it was peaceful. I cant remember much from that day but I know i was sat in the bathroom. The air ambulance got called and I got air lifted to hospital, when I arrived I went into cardiac arrest and it took them 30 minutes to get my heart going again. Nobody had heard of sn and poison control was calling the hospital to see how I was doing. I got put into a coma and my family told to say goodbye to me because they didn't know if I was going to make it or not. I was in hospital for a month and only got discharged the other day. In terms of effects. I can't remember anything anymore and i'm constantly shaking. If anybody has any questions i'll be happy to answer.
 
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BABS_

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Jul 24, 2023
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Hi,

Hope you are doing okay thanks for sharing your experience

You mentioned the police were called, was that just because your family knew you had SN?
 
razor543

razor543

quetiapine <3
Dec 23, 2024
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Hi,

Hope you are doing okay thanks for sharing your experience

You mentioned the police were called, was that just because your family knew you had SN?
I ordered 2 lots. The first lot got seized by customs and police did a welfare check. The second lot arrived
That's horrible. Must be kept a secret . How did the police find out?
i can't really remember. I just know I was in the bathroom and they had to break the door down and I was taking the sn
 
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Nobodi

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Sep 24, 2024
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Do you know how many grams you took? And you said it was peaceful,so minimal discomfort?
 
razor543

razor543

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Dec 23, 2024
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Do you know how many grams you took? And you said it was peaceful,so minimal discomfort?
i dont know how much i took but i mixed it with a drink and drank it. There was no pain. I did throw up but it was enough to stop my heart
Yeah that's the shitty outcome of surviving an attempt, I hope they don't put you in one
after spending almost a month in the hospital i got discharged the other day and im back home now
 
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finalgoodbye:(

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i dont know how much i took but i mixed it with a drink and drank it. There was no pain. I did throw up but it was enough to stop my heart

after spending almost a month in the hospital i got discharged the other day and im back home now
I'm so glad you are back home, psych wards are the worst places to be in
 
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Apathy79

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Oct 13, 2019
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Wow a month in hospital. So what was the damage they kept you in for? Was it heart related?
 
razor543

razor543

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Dec 23, 2024
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Wow a month in hospital. So what was the damage they kept you in for? Was it heart related?
i was in a coma for some of it. I stopped eating. I had a ng tube. I had to relearn how to walk and stuff
 
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Alexandra0

Don't Fear the Reaper
Sep 30, 2023
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I'm so terribly sorry you had to endure so much. And a whole month in hospital is quite a long time, I always have a hard time with hospitalization. I hope you are much better now
 
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Apr 12, 2025
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I am sorry you have been through this, and I hope you are a feeling at least a little bit better now. I think everyone here not only appreciates you sharing the experience but is also there to support and help you navigate through this difficult time.
How are you feeling after leaving the hospital, mentally?
Did you take any other medications along with SN (e.g., benzos and other things mentioned in the protocol), and did you fast beforehand?
All the best for you.
 
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I am sorry you have been through this, and I hope you are a feeling at least a little bit better now. I think everyone here not only appreciates you sharing the experience but is also there to support and help you navigate this difficult time.
How are you feeling after leaving the hospital, mentally?
Did you take any other medications along with SN (e.g., benzos and other things mentioned in the protocol), and did you fast beforehand?
All the best for you.
i didnt. I just put it in a drink and drank the drink in a panic
 
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cryptoinvestor

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Jul 12, 2024
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you didnt take an anti-emetic or anything else? just SN?
 
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rozeske

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I'm sorry you went through that. I hope you recovered well and no lasting damage.
 
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Oct 6, 2024
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I'm so sorry you went through all of this and I hope you're recovering well. This seems so scary to deal with.
 
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