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attheendofthenight_

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Apr 30, 2026
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I started with my mom but I have so many people I want to say goodbye to. So many people to know how great of an impact they had on me and how much I'm going to miss them. I have so much to write before I die. I wish I had more of an impact on these people but I know my death will be meaningless. I'm happy I won't hurt people, but I want to let them know that I cared.
 
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ginadu

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Apr 18, 2026
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I am sure you did have an impact on these people. Sounds like you have many people who care about you. I doubt it was a one way street. They must have reciprocated your feelings. You are feeling low right now so I imagine you just can't feel their return of love and respect.
 
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peacebenow

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Apr 26, 2026
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I am sure your death will not be meaningless.
 
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DeathKitty

DeathKitty

Miserable
Apr 11, 2024
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I started with my mom but I have so many people I want to say goodbye to. So many people to know how great of an impact they had on me and how much I'm going to miss them. I have so much to write before I die. I wish I had more of an impact on these people but I know my death will be meaningless. I'm happy I won't hurt people, but I want to let them know that I cared.
I'm sure it wouldnt be meaningless❤️ I'm sure the love you feel towards those people goes both ways❤️
 
Imausername

Imausername

Mentally Tortured
Feb 15, 2026
73
how do you even write a note. im at a loss.. ive gone from sorry, to blaming others who hurt me, then to saying the whole thing is blown out of proportions. i just dont know. Part of me wants to lie and say everything is ok as whos mom wants to read about abuse but then she'll kinda want some soft explanation... i just dont know how to write it and i feel selfish going without writing one but i might idk... im running out of time
 
thefirstluminary

thefirstluminary

never knows best
Mar 9, 2026
25
how do you even write a note. im at a loss.. ive gone from sorry, to blaming others who hurt me, then to saying the whole thing is blown out of proportions. i just dont know. Part of me wants to lie and say everything is ok as whos mom wants to read about abuse but then she'll kinda want some soft explanation... i just dont know how to write it and i feel selfish going without writing one but i might idk... im running out of time
what's the point of being not honest though
isn't a suicide is all about being honest about emotions you couldn't express before you die so let it all out I think people will excuse you, cause you are dead and nobody is gonna judge you anyways
 
Imausername

Imausername

Mentally Tortured
Feb 15, 2026
73
what's the point of being not honest though
isn't a suicide is all about being honest about emotions you couldn't express before you die so let it all out I think people will excuse you, cause you are dead and nobody is gonna judge you anyways
the truth hurts... it really hurts. im going to be hurting people by CTB and a note is just a second punch. I know what you mean that its all about being honest as theres no need to lie but i dont want to make things worse or hurt people with the truth. Its just hard to walk the middle line.
 
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thefirstluminary

never knows best
Mar 9, 2026
25
the truth hurts... it really hurts. im going to be hurting people by CTB and a note is just a second punch. I know what you mean that its all about being honest as theres no need to lie but i dont want to make things worse or hurt people with the truth. Its just hard to walk the middle line.
hmm yeah you are right maybe apologize to everyone I guess and try to be as nice as possible in your note
I mean you are dying it's either you say it all or don't personally I think I won't try to attack anyone and rather forgive everyone

sorry completely forget about this
 
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RyeSalRuff2

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Apr 23, 2025
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I wanted to try writing one and I started it and I was just talking about the most dumb things that didn't even have any emotion or impact so I just scrunched it and threw it away. I am glad to hear, however that you had people you liked.
 

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