Venting I seriously don't know how people do it

[VirtualWorldIsBette]

Day after day, all I feel is terrible. I'm passively suicidal but still get really dark thoughts about hurting myself and hurting the world. It gets even worse when I think about how long I have to live for; it makes me so depressed knowing that it won't get better. How do people just get on with their lives and live day to day? I don't know when I will kill myself, but I eventually wild. At latest after my parents die

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I've been really close to that edge of just doing it, so I know how difficult it is to actually do it. It takes more courage to actually commit to ending my life than people say it is. They like to say it's "the coward's way out" but how can it be cowardly? It clearly isn't. I don't know for sure when I will do it either myself, but some day I know I will.

 

[hihi2027]

I've been really close to that edge of just doing it, so I know how difficult it is to actually do it. It takes more courage to actually commit to ending my life than people say it is. They like to say it's "the coward's way out" but how can it be cowardly? It clearly isn't. I don't know for sure when I will do it either myself, but some day I know I will.

The true cowards way out is to continue living while knowing one is miserable. Their only motivation being the ego of other selfish people's perspective. To live miserable for anothers goal and ambition. Those who take the plunge to death are infinitely more brave than the living who slog day by day withering in their flesh prison.