Venting I really want to Ctb even though I’m feeling better. I regret trying to recover. Now it’s harder than ever to Ctb. I’m not living, I just want to die

[dyingalone123]

I'm so lost.

 

[FuneralCry]

It sounds like a painful situation you are in. Life is so horrible. I wish ctb was easier as then we would not have to suffer anymore. I wish you the best whatever happens.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

I think it's actually harder once you start feeling better. And just because you're feeling better doesn't mean you were life is on its way to any form of happiness. At least not for me. Am I surviving? Yes. Is that good enough? Not at all.

 

[dyingalone123]

I think it's actually harder once you start feeling better. And just because you're feeling better doesn't mean you were life is on its way to any form of happiness. At least not for me. Am I surviving? Yes. Is that good enough? Not at all.

I agree. I regret trying to recover. Back in September I was completely suicidal. I should have figure out how to get N then. Now it's so hard but my situation hasn't changed other than better sleep. Lack of sleep put me over the edge.

I need a brain aneurysm. Someone in nyc just fatally shoot me when I go back to work in Jan.