Venting I really need to get on with it...

[lighthousekeeper]

It's very difficult to ctb when I live with my family. Think I'll have a few hours to myself one day? No, not a chance! I have to run some errand instead. Why didn't it just work the last time. My dad & my doctor say I had a very slim chance of surviving that attempt. Sometimes I think I'm immortal & sometimes I think I'm dead. Last semester of school I neglected my work as a way to force myself to do it, & it didn't work somehow. What could I have told my profs lol, "hey I didn't think I was going to have to do this because I thought I'd be dead???" & I'm doing it again!!! I know I keep talking about this but I'm just amazed by how little I learn from things & my excuses to be lazy.

 

[WornOutLife]

Did you use to live alone?
I understand not being able to CTB because of family being around all the time. It sucks.
I used to live alone and failed to die too so here I am, 32 years and living again with my parents AGAIN and CTB is absolutely impossible. I'm barely alone.

You made me laugh and let me thinking because I also think I might also be dead. Imagine if dying is simply continuing things from your failed CTB check(dead)point? Damn!

 

[LonelyNick]

I do wonder if I am dead and living in purgatory/hell. This COVID and all the isolation is like hell for me. I'm a very social person and I haven't been able to recharge because there's no even. I'm on a waitlist for 49 weeks for a simple surgery. 2020 feels like Hell, literally.

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Have you considered going to a hotel for a night?

 

[Lilacmoon]

I understand that feeling well... it's so frustrating. I'm also putting off all my schoolwork because I'm going soon. Too relatable :(

 

[Trayus]

Hehe, i wondered the same thing when i failed to pass out in my attempts. If you want to read something funny check out Quantum immortality - truly a terrifying concept.

Quantum suicide and immortality - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

 

[lighthousekeeper]

Have you considered going to a hotel for a night?

I don't have any money, I don't drive since my town has no driver's ed & my parents never taught me & there's no work near me, there's no way I could get any money. All I could do is hanging, but I never have enough time to myself. I doubt they'd let me get a hotel anyway. I lived in dorms before, they wouldn't let me live alone otherwise even though they can't stand me.

 

[Lordsudbury]

Use partial hang in your room give yourself a 2 hour window and play background video game noise with the door close as if you are occupied

 

[lighthousekeeper]

Use partial hang in your room give yourself a 2 hour window and play background video game noise with the door close as if you are occupied

My family walks into my room without knocking, since my last attempt I haven't been allowed to have my door closed :(

 

[jakaka]

My family walks into my room without knocking, since my last attempt uI haven't been allowed to have my door closed :n

My family walks into my room without knocking, since my last attempt I haven't been allowed to have my door closed :(

night time