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SpaxeZ

Member
Feb 28, 2021
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Hello. I'm in a really bad place in my life. Everyday, every hour, every minute is like literal hell. I have non curable erectlie dysfunction doctors say it's non curable never damage.. and can't live like this. I feel suicidal 24/7 even while asleep can't get out of my bed or do anything. My plan was to do it soon but I'm not sure of my method yet. I was thinking about drowning with stones in my bag tightened up around my body with rope also thought about shallow water blackout but not sure yet or not sure where to do it as the weather is so freezing right now and can't be found and rescued by life guards in swimming pool. This forum is good for details but in the end it hasn't been much help as people keep dissing every method and the only most reliable ones being N and SN are near to impossible to purchase so I'm feeling so awful. The times I discovered shallow water blackout a few days ago I felt the most peace and joy in a long time but then again this winter thing came up so can't do it in any open waters. Please someone talk to me in here or even private chat. Thank you!
 
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healthrecovery

Specialist
Sep 25, 2021
378
Getting N is easy tbh only need $
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I'm sorry you are in this situation. This life really is horrible. I understand it is hard to carry on when you are suffering so much. I wish you the best and I hope you find peace.
 
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healthrecovery

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Sep 25, 2021
378
N chapter somewhere in beginning
 
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Flying Away

A listening ear is better than suffering in silenc
Nov 20, 2021
393
But would his mentioned source still work for europe? How much is the price?

Does he mention any sources there? Would it supply to europe? Because I heard its source is not responding anymore
Source works for Europe
 
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Flying Away

A listening ear is better than suffering in silenc
Nov 20, 2021
393
Thank you so much. Sorry for asking a lot of questions but how are you sure? How long does it take to arrive and how much does it cost?
Questions are ok. As for the rest do a little research
 

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