Venting I really do not want to fucking be here right now

[pleasexbexover]

I'm literally not cut out for any of this
I shouldn't even be on this site
I would happily trade my life so that others, who wanted to live, could do so
I am in nothing but misery. No feeling that is good is a feeling that lasts
My mind body and soul are tired, so tired to the point where I just want to stop in all aspects and let myself die a slow and painful death. That feels like the only way I'd be able to achieve it at this point
I'm tired of my survival instinct always rearing it's head, I want to stick to a plan and not deviate from it. Regardless of how much I've hoped and wanted, things DO not, HAVE not, and most likely WILL not get better in the near future.
I'm sorry
I don't want to do this anymore

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand feeling so tired of it all, I also wish to be gone, all I want is to never suffer ever again, I wish you the best.