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goingoutinstyle

goingoutinstyle

Member
Jul 29, 2021
20
I've finally ordered everything I need for the SN protocol and now I'm just waiting for things to come in the mail. Today I got my benzos and I felt so giddy as I picked up the package. It was the happiest I've felt in so long. It look a lot of digging and frustration trying to find everything, but once I finally figured out DNM it all fell into place.

I have no responsibilities for the next two weeks up until my ctb date, so I get to do whatever I want during these final days. I feel so at peace knowing everything will be okay now. All those things that I've been stressing over don't matter anymore. Once I'm gone I'll never feel hurt and nothing will ever be wrong again. Sometimes I can't believe it's real—it's so surreal that I've been dreaming of ctb for so many years and now it's finally within reach.
 
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ihatemyselfwanttodi

ihatemyselfwanttodi

Experienced
Jan 26, 2025
296
How did you get your AE? I've got everything but that right now. Debating on trying one of the online pharmacies. Or going without it since others have succeeded without.
 
goingoutinstyle

goingoutinstyle

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Jul 29, 2021
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I was gonna order from an online pharmacy at first but shipping took too long and the payment methods were confusing so I just found them on DNM!
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
44,318
I understand why you'd feel relief, I wish you the best, I hope that you find the freedom you search for.
 
g0ne1nthew1nd

g0ne1nthew1nd

final peace and comfort in goodbye
Feb 11, 2025
69
I've finally ordered everything I need for the SN protocol and now I'm just waiting for things to come in the mail. Today I got my benzos and I felt so giddy as I picked up the package. It was the happiest I've felt in so long. It look a lot of digging and frustration trying to find everything, but once I finally figured out DNM it all fell into place.

I have no responsibilities for the next two weeks up until my ctb date, so I get to do whatever I want during these final days. I feel so at peace knowing everything will be okay now. All those things that I've been stressing over don't matter anymore. Once I'm gone I'll never feel hurt and nothing will ever be wrong again. Sometimes I can't believe it's real—it's so surreal that I've been dreaming of ctb for so many years and now it's finally within reach.
I wish you a peace and the best when you ctb<3
 
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human909

human909

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Dec 30, 2024
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I know why u feel excited hope you find peace soon!
 
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