Venting I need to go now

[bad luck]

I need to go now. I can't wait to save up a few months for N, so I'll do it with SN. The exact date could be the second week of March. I don't have AE. SN only, atenolol (beta-blocker) and pain relievers other than benzodiazepines. I didn't want to leave like this and I'm scared, but the circumstances have changed for the worse. I have read all the experiences that I could about CTB with SN, and I am glad that they have been able to come out like this. I don't know if my survival instinct will make them find me, I don't know if I should go far away, to the countryside, I don't know what to do... I'm honestly scared. I'm very sad

 

[nowayout*]

I need to go now. I can't wait to save up a few months for N, so I'll do it with SN. The exact date could be the second week of February. I don't have AE. SN only, atenolol (beta-blocker) and pain relievers other than benzodiazepines. I didn't want to leave like this and I'm scared, but the circumstances have changed for the worse. I have read all the experiences that I could about CTB with SN, and I am glad that they have been able to come out like this. I don't know if my survival instinct will make them find me, I don't know if I should go far away, to the countryside, I don't know what to do... I'm honestly scared. I'm very sad

In the same boat but can't seem to bring myself to do it. My anxiety is fucking crushing me.

 

[bad luck]

I have 90 pills of 1mg of alprazolam and 60 of 0.5 of diazepam @nowayout* . I'd give you some if you could, I know I'm not going to need them all.

I hope my death will be like LetzteAusfahrt, or Lilacmoon, mahakaliSS or Stubbe.

I am so sad...

 

[nowayout*]

I have 90 pills of 1mg of alprazolam and 60 of 0.5 of diazepam @nowayout* . I'd give you some if you could, I know I'm not going to need them all.

I hope my death will be like LetzteAusfahrt, or Lilacmoon, mahakaliSS or Stubbe.

I am so sad...

Wish I could have some of those at this point anything would help. All I have is the SN, antacids, and pain killers. But still can't seem to do it.

I need to go now. I can't wait to save up a few months for N, so I'll do it with SN. The exact date could be the second week of March. I don't have AE. SN only, atenolol (beta-blocker) and pain relievers other than benzodiazepines. I didn't want to leave like this and I'm scared, but the circumstances have changed for the worse. I have read all the experiences that I could about CTB with SN, and I am glad that they have been able to come out like this. I don't know if my survival instinct will make them find me, I don't know if I should go far away, to the countryside, I don't know what to do... I'm honestly scared. I'm very sad

I'm having a terrible time trying to find the right location. Can't do it at home & can't go to a hotel. So where the fuck else is there.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much to get to this point. I know that it can be dreadful when things just get worse. I do think it is normal to be scared. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[bad luck]

Wish I could have some of those at this point anything would help. All I have is the SN, antacids, and pain killers. But still can't seem to do it.

I'm having a terrible time trying to find the right location. Can't do it at home & can't go to a hotel. So where the fuck else is there.

Don't you have antiemetics? Neither do I

I'm sorry that you are suffering so much to get to this point. I know that it can be dreadful when things just get worse. I do think it is normal to be scared. I wish you the best in whatever happens.

Thanks. I feel you. Everything was bad, but suddenly it got worse.

 

[somuchpain1]

Is it safe without any antiemetics?
I just have Zofran, some benzos, beta blockers and SN. i am in so much pain and there is no resolution! Don't want to ctb, but what other choose do I have?

 

[bad luck]

Is it safe without any antiemetics?
I just have Zofran, some benzos, beta blockers and SN. i am in so much pain and there is no resolution! Don't want to ctb, but what other choose do I have?

There were people who went like this. I'm trying to find a thread that was written a long time ago about "vomit not causing failure with SN"

 

[somuchpain1]

the reports don't look promising idk

 

[bad luck]

the reports don't look promising idk

And what can I do? I can only get antacid but no antiemetics. I'm so nervous that I do nothing but take xanax

 

[somuchpain1]

I know! What are we supposed to do?

 

[bad luck]

I know! What are we supposed to do?

Nothing. I'll have to try anyway and hope I get the luck of LetzteAusfahrt

 

[somuchpain1]

What's that

 

[bad luck]

What's that

Someone who died only with SN and an ibuprofen

 

[somuchpain1]

Ohhh how do we know

 

[nowayout*]

Don't you have antiemetics? Neither do I

Thanks. I feel you. Everything was bad, but suddenly it got worse.

Nope no antiemetic can't seem to get my hands on it.
I feel you as well. It seems it's all down hill from here.

 

[somuchpain1]

How can we get it

 

[nowayout*]

How can we get it

I think people go to the doctors and try to say they have nausea

 

[Micheal64]

What kind of antacid should i need?
I have seen ppi don't work

 

[bad luck]

What kind of antacid should i need?
I have seen ppi don't work

Tagamet, milk of magnesia...

 

[nowayout*]

What kind of antacid should i need?
I have seen ppi don't work

What is ppi

 

[Micheal64]

What is ppi

proton pump inhibitors, google it

Tagamet, milk of magnesia...

Thanks, do you know if sodium bicarbonate works?