I need the nerve

[bloodfallsfirst]

I'd love to ctb asap, but I can't muster up the nerve to start buying my ratchet strap and bags. I'd get caught if I hesitated when I jump and sent to the trash hospital. He banned this website and put a child lock on my phone, but I found a way past that. He wants long-term inpatient care, but I want to feel safe and buy some N - but the post office here might get nosy.
What to do...

 

[FuneralCry]

It seems as though some people do not respect the right to die, after all it is your life and your decision and other people should not have any say in it. Whatever you decide, I wish you the best. It sounds stressful what you are going through.

 

[Feeding Pigeons]

He wants long-term inpatient care

People have no idea what they're asking for.