I need an exit strategy

[Thisisme373]

I'm so tired of life. I'm 34 years old, I've had depression & anxiety since my teens. I've been on and off suicidal since about 27. I am seriously depressed to the point now that every night when I go to sleep I hope I don't wake up, I would love to get a terminal illness, I'd celebrate it.
Anyways as I'm in UK I don't have access to guns, a gun would be my way out for sure if I could get one.
What can I get my hands on in the UK that's a sure way out? I've read a bit about SN, that seems popular, is it simple to get & simple to CTB with?
I want to purchase something so I got it ready if things don't improve in my life or if it gets any worse. I feel like I'm on the brink right now.

 

[lucacaro]

SN is fairly simple for the most part - however being in the UK I'm unsure of the best way to obtain SN as places outside of the US have been cracking down on SN sales to individuals. I think some people in the UK have gotten it but I'm not sure what their source is so you would have to look/ask around.

You could try looking here for other methods though if SN is no good for you: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/suicide-resource-compilation.3/

 

[Thisisme373]

why's it made to be so hard to ctb, like sn sounded one of the less painful/scary ways and they just make it tougher to get hold of, anyone know any other ways that are not too difficult?
There should be a way you can go to a place to ask for assistance in passing away

 

[summers]

every night when I go to sleep I hope I don't wake up

If only it were that easy...

anyone know any other ways that are not too difficult?

Yes, I won't say specifically what, but you would need to travel to the US for it.