Venting i nearly passed out but got scared

[SHThrowAway213]

tried hanging myself again...and instead of the pressure building, i got really light headed and faint.
but then my si kicked in and i got scared
i stood up and regretted it immediately.
tried again and now i cant get that feeling again.
i hate being like this, i hate the fact i stood up, i hate everything
i regret standing up so much

 

[Ghost2211]

Sending you hugs. SI sucks.

 

[Lostandfound7]

SI is a helluva thing..maybe it's not time yet..maybe u feel like there r still some things that u would like to accomplish or see come to fruition..plz take some to reconsider n wait until u r 100% sure..in the meantime, chill

 

[SHThrowAway213]

Sending you hugs. SI sucks.

thank you and it definitely sucks big time

 

[sickInsominic42]

I'm sorry for your suffering. I wish I could be there to hold your hand through this.

 

[issyishere]

hey no need to be hard on yourself I believe your body stood up as a reflex to try and not pass out. I had the same happen to me and i was fully determined.

 

[SHThrowAway213]

i am just so done and so frustrated with myself

 

[Doom76]

tried hanging myself again...and instead of the pressure building, i got really light headed and faint.
but then my si kicked in and i got scared
i stood up and regretted it immediately.
tried again and now i cant get that feeling again.
i hate being like this, i hate the fact i stood up, i hate everything
i regret standing up so much

How did you do it with rope, belt etc where did you place the noose and how can I do it ?

 

[Rome Horseman]

i am just so done and so frustrated with myself

Love you I'm sorry it didn't go as planned

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

How did you do it with rope, belt etc where did you place the noose and how can I do it ?

Please do your own research. The answers you are looking for have been answered here, many times over.

 

[Doom76]

Please do your own research. The answers you are looking for have been answered here, many times over.

Researching since last year and still no luck :(

 

[Suicide_vampire]

I think when survival instinct is still there, maybe it's not your time, sending you thoughts and love

 

[Doom76]

I think when survival instinct is still there, maybe it's not your time, sending you thoughts and love

I think when survival instinct is still there, maybe it's not your time, sending you thoughts and love

You too, my last attempt I used a belt closed on top of the door I was in a sitting position I began to feel pressure buildup, ringing in my ears and eye floaters I have the belt tightened on the left side of my neck behind my left ear, I also began to see floaters but did not pass out did I have this done correctly but not enough pressure?

 

[one4all]

SI is a beatch. There is really know way to determine how much you or your body with fight to live. Seems a very common but PITA issue

 

[mesohappy]

I know the feeling..I tried partial back in December I believe.Tried with belt in door jamb ala "Robin Williams style".Just as I felt I was going out,the belt snapped.Got another belt and tried it again a couple days later.I didn't have it right and it was torturous.Hanged for awhile,then my legs started fighting to stand on their own.It was like something else was controlling them besides me.Sorry life has brought you to this point.Partial is a very difficult method.I don't think Ill try it again.

 

[Doom76]

I know the feeling..I tried partial back in December I believe.Tried with belt in door jamb ala "Robin Williams style".Just as I felt I was going out,the belt snapped.Got another belt and tried it again a couple days later.I didn't have it right and it was torturous.Hanged for awhile,then my legs started fighting to stand on their own.It was like something else was controlling them besides me.Sorry life has brought you to this point.Partial is a very difficult method.I don't think Ill try it again.

I think drinking alcohol can help beat the SI as your sedated already then just pass out :D