I mainly feel guilty for my cousin

[LastDayOnEarth]

She's my grandma's sister's daughter so obviously older than me but she was always like a mother, a really good person. She never married or have kids and my aunt has been dead for years now, she alwsys wanted the best for me. Two of her long time friends died recently from health concerns, so me CTBing will definitely break her.

I know at the end of the day, once you ctb nothing matters anymore, the mess you leave behind is not yours to clean up, but I just wished there was a way to delete any trace of my existance to not leave that mess in the first place

 

[bruised_reed]

Yes, I worry about those I'm leaving behind too. I worry about their ability to cope.
I'm sorry you're suffering