Mental
Member
- Oct 12, 2021
- 38
Officially, yesterday I lost my mind. I smoked a joint of marijuana and hashish (which I was doing since I was 15 years old now I'm 21) and gave me an outbreak in front of my friends and the guy I'm having sex with frequently.
I have little pictures of me hitting them, threatening to kill them if they didn't let me kill myself. Of me running down the road and telling them to fuck off and declaring myself a friend in front of everyone. I basically screwed up. Whenever I have good friends my brain fucks up.I was taken to my residence in the car because we had to leave, and my brain stopped, I saw my death, it was us in the car and I telling my friend that I would always love him while the song i follow rivers was playing.I got out of the car, I took off my shirt and I started running while I told them to fuck everyone, and several guys saw me, I was going with the intention of throwing myself on a highway, that's what my friends told me that now they do not speak to me.I'm aware that this is all funny, but I can't help but take away the bad part of hurting them and think about how beautiful it looked the day I got back to being near death, it was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen in my life.
I have little pictures of me hitting them, threatening to kill them if they didn't let me kill myself. Of me running down the road and telling them to fuck off and declaring myself a friend in front of everyone. I basically screwed up. Whenever I have good friends my brain fucks up.I was taken to my residence in the car because we had to leave, and my brain stopped, I saw my death, it was us in the car and I telling my friend that I would always love him while the song i follow rivers was playing.I got out of the car, I took off my shirt and I started running while I told them to fuck everyone, and several guys saw me, I was going with the intention of throwing myself on a highway, that's what my friends told me that now they do not speak to me.I'm aware that this is all funny, but I can't help but take away the bad part of hurting them and think about how beautiful it looked the day I got back to being near death, it was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen in my life.
