I lost her forever

[Canttakeitanymore]

Fuck guys last year i met the perfect girl and we got along until i fucked everything by being a jealous clingy as fuck, now she hates me its been like 3 months already ive been trying to convince her but she just wont talk to me like before no matter what and its so fucking painful, she blocked me in everything, fuck i was suicidal as fuck until i met her, she gave me a reason to live i didnt think about suicide for months when i was talking to her, i miss her so fucking much i feel like crying i cant tske it anymore i cant believe i lost her forever

 

[GarageKarate07]

Fuck guys last year i met the perfect girl and we got along until i fucked everything by being a jealous clingy as fuck, now she hates me its been like 3 months already ive been trying to convince her but she just wont talk to me like before no matter what and its so fucking painful, she blocked me in everything, fuck i was suicidal as fuck until i met her, she gave me a reason to live i didnt think about suicide for months when i was talking to her, i miss her so fucking much i feel like crying i cant tske it anymore i cant believe i lost her forever

Love stings like hell. I'm sorry. I lost a girl I loved very much. I wondered what I could do to fix it but I can't. There's not a lot to comfort someone in a break up. Don't beat yourself up though. You are probly still young. You can find another girl and maybe it will be better.

 

[Canttakeitanymore]

Love stings like hell. I'm sorry. I lost a girl I loved very much. I wondered what I could do to fix it but I can't. There's not a lot to comfort someone in a break up. Don't beat yourself up though. You are probly still young. You can find another girl and maybe it will be better.

Im too short and ugly

 

[GarageKarate07]

Im too short and ugly

What country are you in?

 

[Good4Nothing]

You showed weakness.
As soon as they sense it they lose all respect and despise you.
Better luck next time.

Yes, I'm bitter. Sue me.

 

[esoterispeec]

Fuck guys last year i met the perfect girl and we got along until i fucked everything by being a jealous clingy as fuck, now she hates me its been like 3 months already ive been trying to convince her but she just wont talk to me like before no matter what and its so fucking painful, she blocked me in everything, fuck i was suicidal as fuck until i met her, she gave me a reason to live i didnt think about suicide for months when i was talking to her, i miss her so fucking much i feel like crying i cant tske it anymore i cant believe i lost her forever

I'm so sorry man I hope you get her back.

 

[Mr. Whippy]

lol i stopped loving the only person that ever fucking loved me, i'm really an ungrateful shitty fucker and i don't deserve love

 

[Canttakeitanymore]

lol i stopped loving the only person that ever fucking loved me, i'm really an ungrateful shitty fucker and i don't deserve love

You are privileged no one ever loved me

 

[GarageKarate07]

You are privileged no one ever loved me

How old are about? Like what decade? Are you living alone? Are you in the same city as your parents or other family?

 

[Life_and_Death]

You showed weakness.
As soon as they sense it they lose all respect and despise you.
Better luck next time.

Yes, I'm bitter. Sue me.

I personally prefer to try and help them. "weakness" means nothing to me. What matters to me is that you're a good person

 

[GarageKarate07]

I personally prefer to try and help them. "weakness" means nothing to me. What matters to me is that you're a good person

The reason he is alone is not the problem. He is alone and needs a friend so that he doesn't do what every one here wants to do. I think I wanted to do it about 8 times today. I didn't. Am I glad? Meh. But we need to support each other and give a hand up somehow. Not that the point of her being the villain (if thats true) is not valid in a way. Relationships are hard for both involved. I hate saying that because I'm mad as well. But yeah.

 

[Canttakeitanymore]

I would do anything for her to comeback

 

[Canttakeitanymore]

I miss her so much i cant take it anymore

 

[muffin222]

I'm not trying to sound mean, but this sounds more like codependent "addictive" love than healthy love. Putting ALL of your hopes for life into the hands of one girl (or person in general) isn't healthy for you or for the other person.

I'd guarantee that if you look deeply within yourself, you may recognize that your despair over losing her is much more about you and your beliefs about your lovability than it is about her. I've been there, too- I completely understand. I'm sorry you're hurting so much

 

[fatiguecentral]

I understand your pain. I have been through it too. Nothing will assuage the chaos and pain you're feeling right now except getting her back. You need to give yourself some time to let this storm pass and for things to settle a bit.

@muffin222 has said something very true. This sounds codependent and unhealthy. This is something to reflect on once things settle for you.

I'm sorry you're going through this. I know how painful it can be. My message box is available of you need to vent. Please just release your emotions and be compassionate with yourself.

 

[blvck]

I'm too afraid to fall in love.

 

[Canttakeitanymore]

Her love is the only thing that could stop me but she doesnt give a shit about me anymore

 

[blvck]

Her love is the only thing that could stop me but she doesnt give a shit about me anymore

i don't know if this helps or not. But there was a boy i sort of was falling in love with. i felt the fireworks literally every time we were in the same room. He was so nice to me. Literally never met a person like that ever, and haven't since then. We weren't in a relationship, and he didnt even know I liked him. I had to fight to control myself because God knows I wanted to be around him as much as possible amd literally every opportunity. But sadly , he passed away in 2017 from a suicide...I was suicidal already before then and was planning to do it before him. I always wonder if we could have actually made something because I realize now the similar problems we had/have.

My point is, I don't know what hurts more: seeing the one you love die and wondering what if for the rest of your life, or seeing that person walk out of your life. Atleast you can still watch over them from a distance...and see them grow and go through life. *tears* He's only going to be stuck at 20 years old for the rest of my life as I continue to get older. sigh... people like that are like winning the lottery. But no one said you cant win more than once.

I mean it's cliche and I don't mean to get your hopes up or anything, but peoplecan change. Even us. If you can and have motivation to, if I was in your shoes , I would just try and become the best possible version of myself. And who knows, maybe someonw with those same traits and even more, will notice that and will come into your life.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Her love is the only thing that could stop me but she doesnt give a shit about me anymore

Basically how I felt when the girl I fell in love with a few months ago deleted her Discord account leaving me no way of ever communicating with her again (unless she decides to make a new account and find me on SS lol).

I really felt this was as close as I was going to get but I guess anyone who learns enough about me is understandably gonna want to abandon me forever. I'm glad she's probably happier without me in her life.

All I can say for you though is to try not to give a shit about her anymore as much as she does about you. I know that's way easier said than done but it's kind of the only way out when we're stuck like this.

 

[Makko]

You showed weakness.
As soon as they sense it they lose all respect and despise you.
Better luck next time.

Yes, I'm bitter. Sue me.

To be fair, respecting people is hard work. If I had to do that all day for years I'd get worn out pretty fast.

 

[Good4Nothing]

To be fair, respecting people is hard work. If I had to do that all day for years I'd get worn out pretty fast.

Nonsense. I respect everyone until they give me a reason not to.