I looked up a method and chickened out

[Justhere]

I had this very short but extremely serious urge to CTB. To be honest, I've only felt like that once before, and now it's passed. I had enough selfawareness to know the feeling would probably pass, but I was thinking to myself "I'm doing this for the next time I feel like this."
But when I started reading the method, I started to feel sick and I had a sudden realization of sick this whole thing is. I've mostly only thought of suicide as an ideation and a way to calm myself. Frankly, I feel like I shouldnt even belong here anymore.

i chickened out, I got scared, the thought of putting poison in my body just made me suddenly wanna throweverything away. Im so confused and I dont know what to do now.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I think if you have urges but not constant desire to end life, it's not too late to get help, try medication, try to improve your life, everything.

 

[Justhere]

I know that, and I am, but I don't know if I should just move to another forum that's more appropriate or stick to the recovery threads here.

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

I know that, and I am, but I don't know if I should just move to another forum that's more appropriate or stick to the recovery threads here.

I find recovery section here is lacking, there must be more resourceful forums out there.
Plus it will be a decision to move away from suicide forum as a step to recovery.

 

[Brick In The Wall]

If you have any doubts whatsoever then you still have hope in life and you aren't ready. It's not a negative connotation either, take some time to rethink shit and find another approach at recovery or.... alternative routes.

 

[Justhere]

Thank you. Youre both very kind about this. Ill try to find a forum more appropriate and Im sorry for wasting people's time. I'll stay in recovery until I find a place.

 

[deadpixels]

Thank you. Youre both very kind about this. Ill try to find a forum more appropriate and Im sorry for wasting people's time. I'll stay in recovery until I find a place.

you're not wasting anyone's time

I tried to write something more thoughtful and reassuring but that's all that came out of my mind