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encoder

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Obviously I didn't know them personally, but I was really engaged with their journaling of their final days before attempting via train.
They seemed so excited to die, I can only assume their final days were freeing, and I relate to that.
Judging by their writing style, they seemed young. The last movie they saw was Toy Story 5, and spent much of the day listening to music on repeat.

Whether they backed out or came through, I hope they managed to take something good out of it.
I personally believe it was the latter, so...
Thank you for posting, SoontobeSoil.
May you finally rest in peace.
 
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FF777

FF777

I am male..
Jul 21, 2019
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yeah, i posted in their CTB thread.. and they haven't been online for a few days now so they probably succeeded in CTB.. they reacted to a lot of my posts which was nice..

talking to people on these forums is strange some times because it's like you get to know a person for a while and every thing, and then one day they are just not on this plane of existence any more..
 
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interna

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Gone Tomorrow, Here Today
Dec 1, 2025
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ive also been thinking about them. they seemed manic to me if anything quite frankly. a lot of their behavior pointed towards them having an episode .
i hope they're at peace
 
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Braindead Girl

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Jul 16, 2026
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They seemed very desperate for a way out, I just hope they had no regrets in their final moments.
 
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Aug 12, 2023
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yeah, i posted in their CTB thread.. and they haven't been online for a few days now so they probably succeeded in CTB.. they reacted to a lot of my posts which was nice..

talking to people on these forums is strange some times because it's like you get to know a person for a while and every thing, and then one day they are just not on this plane of existence any more..
It truly is surreal. I haven't been on here in around three years, but to dig through and find that some of the posters I remember from the last time I was here had CTB...Damn, not sure how to describe it. I mean I have a hard time telling my emotions as it is, but yeah, very strange.
 
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Apology

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Oct 13, 2023
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R I P to a real one
 
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dandayooo

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And then I'll be nothing forever
Jun 8, 2026
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She was a 21-year-old woman, according to her profile. But yeah, the first goodbye posts you see on here leave a mark on you.
 
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