Venting I keep wanting to keep going but i can't

[itssoover21]

I've decided to delay my ctb to june 20th for reasons related to finalising some things with my life, however, doing that requires me to keep pushing through MOUNDS of built up tasks, work, personal connections to keep up with, and other similar stuff for those 20 days, and for the last 3 or so days I've been seesawing between thinking that maybe i might keep on pushing and that i will actually fucking crumble at any given time of day. It's exhausting and it hurts so much, i was never ever this low in my life, mentally or physically or otherwise, and i can't handle it all. Please share your experience if someone is going through/went through something similar, it would be extremely comforting at this godawful time I'm going through. And thank you for reading this vent, feels good to be seen and somewhat recognised here.