needwaytohell
Member
- Apr 2, 2025
- 60
Hi. I've been away for a while I genuinely don't know what I have been doing with my life lately. I feel so done, lost my ability to think and most importantly interest. I come back and cry on my bed trying to stop breathing hoping that I never wake up . I cry every single night on why I make my life so miserable. I have been spoiling my health not sleeping on time and overloading myself with junk. I feel like everything I do I over complicate it and extend it so much I'm often the only one who works on group work. My friends are truly non existent I feel unrelatable to anyone. I had one passion growing up and thought life would lead me to working there I kept it intact chasing it but yeah life's a lie and I don't think I've anymore left in me. I question everyday and pray the lords to please put my life to an end. This vicious society will laugh over my attempt to dying when I cry in pain everyday for not being what I want to be. Even as I plan to take my life I feel so bloody struck struck in delenma of my work when I'm not even happy with what I'm doing. I feel like a slave with absolutely no shame of being alive. I truly wish everyday my ctb happens sooner . The only good thing in life was finding out that there's one last thing I need that's SN method once I get it done I'm never looking back when every conscious stops will be my most joyful time ever I'm crying
