Why am I doing this? I did it again. I did coke and have been an anxious mess again. I just want to die. I have a job helping people but I don't feel any better as I'm sad my dog is at home alone I just want to die really bad.
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fox_wannabe
Enlightened
- Jul 7, 2021
- 1,112
Are you coming down from coke atm?
It is not like you can just stop doing coke, so I wouldn't blame yourself for that.
Snake of Eden
“Ye shall be as gods..🍎 🐍”
- Jun 22, 2021
- 2,472
motel rooms
Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
- Apr 13, 2021
- 7,081
Because you hate yourself & you "just want to die really bad"... Why is that the case? I don't know, I'm not familiar with your life story, but I'm sure it's really sad...
Yeah coming down and have terrible anxiety. Wanting to just hang myself to escape it
A lot of things, I had terrible childhood, violent father, SA, went off the rails at 14, have never achieved any of the things should have, as I have had undiagnosed adhd till now (I'm 35). I think my self hatred stems from him, never giving me any praise for anything. It just spiraled. I've had a lot of trauma. I'm always anxious and hate myself for itBecause you hate yourself & you "just want to die really bad"... Why is that the case? I don't know, I'm not familiar with your life story, but I'm sure it's a really sad one...
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Starryeyes
Experienced
- Sep 22, 2021
- 237
Same! Got on it last night and regret it big time. Felt good at the time but the cone down spirals my depression
It's the worst feeling I don't know why I keep doing it to myself. It's so stupid. I always feel like I've done something terrible and like I'm gonna get killed or something as stupid as that is
God I hope this community never ends, so many helpful people. So many nice people. You guys have helped me from the edge so
Many times
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FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,628
I'm sorry you are in so much pain. Being alive really is horrible. I hope you find peace.
fox_wannabe
Enlightened
- Jul 7, 2021
- 1,112
It is ok, It will pass. Just hang on for now. Have you thought about quitting coke?
sadbadpsychogirl
sonofabitch
- May 29, 2020
- 725
not trying to encourage drug use, but if you're doing uppers its a good idea to have something to help the come down
Thank you, it helps to know it will end. I have and a should do, I jus get drunk and I can't help it. I'm weak
I have Valium, and honestly I fell asleep quite easily after but I woke up with the worst anxiety it was absolutely horrible. I usually hVe Valium for the comedown but even ten of them didn't work today
alwaysdopesick
Member
- Oct 19, 2021
- 61
I use colonazolam occasionally for anxiety/sleep/recreation, but I sont encourage anyone else use it. Sounds like stimulants just not be your thing man.Similar threads
