Venting I just wish someone would've stayed with me

[gardenoflonely]

I don't even understand myself so I wasn't really expecting anyone else to, but even in not knowing exactly how I operate I wonder why it has been so hard to be compassionate towards me. Just sitting with me in silence maybe would've even been enough but it's like, I have been very open/verbal to family about having suicidal thoughts (and even open about my attempts when they failed) I feel like I'm drowning in this feeling and the worse part is not that nobody knows is that nobody cares

 

[interna]

I understand the feeling