Venting I just wasted my time.

[Corovaner]

10 months ago I decided to try to fix my life, make it like 13 years ago. And attempt failed, like all other in my life. I worked hard on my job, and it leds me to nothing. I quit it, mostly bacause I found out that my colleagues abusing their children. Scums. And salary was not enough. I cannot get my own home, cannot get over my poverty, cannot fix my health. Si and hope are bitches. Toxic positivity is a bullshit. I just wasted my time to return to the start point. I regret that I didn't kill myself last year.

 

[larplarpsahur]

I'm sorry to hear you went thru all of that, but you tried to make a difference and I think that's the important thing you've accomplished

 

[Corovaner]

Thank you for kind words, but my attempt to fix my life was miserable. I've accomplished almost nothing.
And I don't know what to do next. The most logical step is suicide, because there is no future for me, but what if I survive sn? And SI is a tough son of a bitch.