Venting I just want to vent and release

[dontwakemeup]

I woke up this morning early. I always hated the initial waking up in the morning. I took extra sleeping pills because I just wanted to escape life for 1 day. I woke up again, the pills can only do so much, so I started my day and began to cry. I'm just so exhausted with being here. Attempts have failed and was forced to psych for 3 days. The people that assisted with my psych hold once released I blocked them all and walked away forever. I think they would love to believe that psych hold helped me. I'll be honest, I did learn one thing, to keep my mouth shut! I no longer complain, I have no outlets to confide with, I'm all alone. I am basically waiting to die. There is nothing that brings me any pleasure in life! I appear how people expect me to act and look, perhaps they are pretending also, idk, I never ask because I don't care. My voice was stollen from me, so I barely listen to others complaints about life! I'm always in mental and physical pain, I just need to sleep for a few days and give my brain a break, but I can't.

I just want to thank the creators of this site for fighting so hard to give us a safe space where we can share how we truly feel, when society has told us this isn't "normal." To everyone who suffers in silence, like myself, I'm sorry. If I made spelling errors because auto correct, well I don't care. Hopefully all of our buses are coming soon!

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand finding it painful to exist, I also see my existence as just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it, I just wish to sleep as well, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I understand finding it painful to exist, I also see my existence as just waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it, I just wish to sleep as well, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.

Thank you! You are always so nice and sweet. I also hope you find the relief you're searching for. Best wishes to you

 

[wantingdignity]

I'm so sorry for how bad the psych ward was. It sounds like you're feeling really lonely. I really hope things get better for you soon.

I was inpatient a few weeks ago and it was just awful and lonely. Outpatient programs are a lot better.

 

[dontwakemeup]

I'm so sorry for how bad the psych ward was. It sounds like you're feeling really lonely. I really hope things get better for you soon.

I was inpatient a few weeks ago and it was just awful and lonely. Outpatient programs are a lot better.

Thank you I never wanted my suicide to be taboo as I spoke openly of my wishes to close friends. I'm definitely lonely now, but I can never trust anyone again to share these thoughts, not even a psychiatrist! I'll never seek any help from them again. But I'm so happy your experience had been a good one. Thanks for your response

 

[Pale_Rider]

You are a quick study! "I'll be honest, I did learn one thing, to keep my mouth shut! "

 

[dontwakemeup]

You are a quick study! "I'll be honest, I did learn one thing, to keep my mouth shut! "

It took me 1 day to figure that out! They couldn't believe the fast progress I made I took 2 doses of their stupid medication and never got the prescription! Guess I'm a success they rehabilitated