Venting I just want to run away

[waitingforrest]

I just want to go somewhere far away from everyone. Somewhere where I can never be found. But I know where ever I go, my mind will never shut up.

I feel my time is coming near. I think I'm okay with that now. I lived my best I could. When I finally decide to ctb, I'll go somewhere that no one will ever find me. I will finally be free then. Free from everything.

 

[GeorgeEastman]

I always thought it would be good if I could somehow set it up to lay in a grave and pull a string or something and just go ahead and bury myself.

Think about that. Being found already dead and in your own grave. Everyone could just go on and not have to mess with digging it, the fake funeral, etc.

But of course, I'm way too lazy to set it up.

 

[FuneralCry]

Whatever happens, I wish you the best. More than anything I would like to escape from this life, but for me the only way to escape is to die. I see death as being freedom from all suffering and it is the thing I want the most. I just want to not exist.