I just want to feel alright

[ravenx]

I feel a lot of dread when I think about myself, and I do not know when will this feeling stop.

I can't feel nothing after spending time with my gf, and sometimes I just feel relaxed, but hours later like now, I feel a lot of dread and almost agony.

Can't explain what it's happening.

 

[Innereye]

If there's something underlying and pathological, it's best to get an extensive diagnosis first. From there you can figure out what you want and where to go.