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elderDrifter

Life is Transitory
Mar 9, 2024
46
I want to believe that even if my SN doesn't work, that I at least have hanging to fall back on. Everytime I fantasize about suicide I always imagine it being by hanging. There's something romantic about it, oddly enough.

It's such a shame because part of me wants to make life work. But life right now doesn't seem to want me to make it work, so why keep going right? What can I possibly stick around for? The hope that things can magically turn around? The hope that I can find something meaningful to do for work? The hope I suddenly won't be lonely and pathetic?

I wonder if this is all my sense of self is meant to be: lonely, depressed, downtrodden, defeated. Once this life ends I can only imagine what happens next. Hopefully it's just a long peaceful sleep. Anyway I'm rambling. Thank you for reading this if you did. It'd make me feel a little less lonely if anything I said resonated and you shared your thoughts.
 
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opheliaoveragain

opheliaoveragain

Global Mod
Jun 2, 2024
2,091
Can definitely relate. SN and hanging are mine too. DMs open <3
 
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,679
I also just wish for eternal sleep as well, the thought of such is all that personally comforts me. But anyway I wish you the best.
 

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