I just want to be dead

[abruptum]

There is just too much pain, everything makes me feel bad, i just want happiness, why is all of this so hard for me. I just want to not feel like a burden, a useless human, a waste of existence. At this point im starting to second guess if im even a good person. I just want people to be nice and not be so hurtful. Every step people take to be mean towards me is amplified x100 and its just growing too fast too much. I just wish I had a useful and worthwhile meathod to ctb.

 

[OpheliasFlowers]

All I can think to say that doesn't sound stupid is - I understand and relate to all that you wrote. <3

 

[abruptum]

All I can think to say that doesn't sound stupid is - I understand and relate to all that you wrote. <3

Its so doomed that we have to go through this I am sorry you deal with this also <3

 

[x~Sophia~x]

There is just too much pain, everything makes me feel bad, i just want happiness, why is all of this so hard for me. I just want to not feel like a burden, a useless human, a waste of existence. At this point im starting to second guess if im even a good person. I just want people to be nice and not be so hurtful. Every step people take to be mean towards me is amplified x100 and its just growing too fast too much. I just wish I had a useful and worthwhile meathod to ctb.

I'm sorry that people are so mean to you - do you have any idea why they are like this? Are you talking about family and friends here, or just people in general?
Can you remember when and why they started being mean to you, or has it always been this way?
Do you have anyone you can trust to talk to about how this makes you feel?

 

[abruptum]

I'm sorry that people are so mean to you - do you have any idea why they are like this? Are you talking about family and friends here, or just people in general?
Can you remember when and why they started being mean to you, or has it always been this way?
Do you have anyone you can trust to talk to about how this makes you feel?

I just try to cater to making others happy and they dont do the same or recognize what I do for them. All i want is a simple thank you, a hug, even just a smile; yet, all i get is higher expectations

 

[x~Sophia~x]

I just try to cater to making others happy and they dont do the same or recognize what I do for them. All i want is a simple thank you, a hug, even just a smile; yet, all i get is higher expectations

Have you tried stopping taking great efforts to make people happy?
How about concentrating on making yourself happy for a change?
People are taking advantage of you and your good nature, and because you get nothing in return, it's making you feel worthless. If you stop trying to please everyone, you'll have few expectations from others and perhaps you'll be in a happier place?

 

[abruptum]

Have you tried stopping taking great efforts to make people happy?
How about concentrating on making yourself happy for a change?
People are taking advantage of you and your good nature, and because you get nothing in return, it's making you feel worthless. If you stop trying to please everyone, you'll have few expectations from others and perhaps you'll be in a happier place?

Its so ahrd for me to have happiness i only live to not dissapoint others

 

[x~Sophia~x]

Its so ahrd for me to have happiness i only live to not dissapoint others

But it's not working is it!?
You deserve to have a chance at happiness, so you could try not letting others disappoint YOU.

 

[abruptum]

But it's not working is it!?
You deserve to have a chance at happiness, so you could try not letting others disappoint YOU.

i get what youre saying i really do appreciate it <3

 

[Yiyo123]

Right now... I don't beleive in happiness... not anymore. You may experience a moment of joy. But for me, i gave up all hope a long time ago. I considered myself a burden to my wife, my stepdaughters, parents and brothers. I'm in a constant state of dissapoinment that feeds my depression, anxiety and psychosis. I feel useless, empty and with and incredible sense of guilt. I can't CTB right now because I have to take care of a few things 1st. But for me, life id meaningless. There's no empathy whatsoever. People is always so judgemental and defensive. There is no tolerance for being different and speaking about it. There is no love for one another, no peace... there is so much division. The world is a beautiful and nasty place to live. I'm tired of the indifference, of not being treated equal, of being mistreated just for being to depressed. So that's it... that's how i feel.

 

[readyforsleep]

I'm also stuck because of lack of method. I've already failed three times and I really need the next time to work.