I just want this to be over

[Steamm]

I'm tired of my life, tired of this prision, tired of those fucked up medications, this ain't life.

 

[yive]

me too, Steamm :(

 

[Miss_Takes]

Im sorry .... its all so very hard and exhausting isnt it.
Just being is exhausting.

 

[Bleunoir]

Same, I wake up disappointed every morning . The first thought is always crap I am forced to exist again....

 

[I screwed up]

Yes every morning the first thought is why am I still alive ..I hate my fuckin life .. I am so bloody chicken I can't even ctb.

 

[Bleunoir]

Yes every morning the first thought is why am I still alive ..I hate my fuckin life .. I am so bloody chicken I can't even ctb.

Same. I analyze too much that what keeps me from doing it finally:( I read too many medical books , that's my curse.

 

[Miss_Takes]

Yes every morning the first thought is why am I still alive ..I hate my fuckin life .. I am so bloody chicken I can't even ctb.

I also awaken with dread that I am still here and my heart thumping in my chest ... i have stopped medicating the issue that causes my heart to pound because I have always actually enjoyed the sensation and also because of some silly hope it will wear out quicker lol

 

[Meditation guide]

I'm tired of my life, tired of this prision, tired of those fucked up medications, this ain't life.

You said it. It's bad.

 

[Chemicalcastration20]

I'm tired of my life, tired of this prision, tired of those fucked up medications, this ain't life.

I feel your pain my friend.. My life has been ruined by a cocktail of antidepressants.. They never helped me just ruined my life. I'm so desperate to CTB.. I'm just so scared of doing it.. Iv had so many failed attempts this year