Past two months have been hell to me , this constant pain no matter how much i try to distract myself doesn't stop
Feels like only way to end this pain is by CTB.
I have had few failed attempts and its kills me more
i tried hanging, it failed beacuse the rope got lose and my feet touched the ground
I tried putting vinegar and baking soda in a garbage bag and putting over my head but out of panic i teared the bag after 15-20 secs
I tried putting butane in the bag and cover my head but all it did was made me feel high , heart rate got up or down i dont know , I passed out but gained back my consciousness after an hour I guess
I really need a way out , every minute of my life feels like a burden and only thing i can think of is how to end this.
after reading some threads here i got to know that SN is an option as well so i have ordered it and it will be delivered within a week or so , but i dont know how i even will handle myself even a day more
I have also ordered some charcoal which i am gonna try tomorrow night in my bathroom, Please help me with an option which will work 100% so i don't have to go through all this again and again
Also TBH i also think about this, what if we think that ending life will end the pain hopefully but what if there is actually an afterlife which could be worse and there is no coming back from it.
Feels like only way to end this pain is by CTB.
I have had few failed attempts and its kills me more
i tried hanging, it failed beacuse the rope got lose and my feet touched the ground
I tried putting vinegar and baking soda in a garbage bag and putting over my head but out of panic i teared the bag after 15-20 secs
I tried putting butane in the bag and cover my head but all it did was made me feel high , heart rate got up or down i dont know , I passed out but gained back my consciousness after an hour I guess
I really need a way out , every minute of my life feels like a burden and only thing i can think of is how to end this.
after reading some threads here i got to know that SN is an option as well so i have ordered it and it will be delivered within a week or so , but i dont know how i even will handle myself even a day more
I have also ordered some charcoal which i am gonna try tomorrow night in my bathroom, Please help me with an option which will work 100% so i don't have to go through all this again and again
Also TBH i also think about this, what if we think that ending life will end the pain hopefully but what if there is actually an afterlife which could be worse and there is no coming back from it.
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