Venting I just want the universe to leave me alone and to stop playing stupid games with me all of the time!

[BlooBerryBanjo3000]

(I guess I'm doing daily rants/vents now and will keep repeating the same stuff over and over again like a broken record, until I finally man up and die. Sorry if I'm annoying.)

Does it ever feel like the universe is bullying you, or bullying you to suicide? Does it ever feel like the universe is just begging you to commit suicide? Do you feel like you were put on earth just to suffer?

For me (especially lately), it feels like it just keeps throwing so many stupid little "tests" or "challenges" at me relentlessly, as if it is it's way of telling me to just hurry up and commit already. And then when I finally consider going through with it, it'll give me good things (things good enough to make me reconsider committing). I'm beyond sick and tired of this never-ending loop!

I just want a hug. I just want to cry. I just want to scream my lungs out until I can't anymore, until nothing comes out, until my throat bleeds and my voice is completely broken (probably not literally possible, but you get what I mean). But most of all, I just want this madness to end, to be free from this joke of a life. If this isn't pain (or at least considered pain), then I don't know what is.

 

[Goodgirlryeo101]

You don't have to worry about death since it's coming for us all. I just saw something on facebook that said in 200 years time all of us will gone and what not.

No one even knows if they will be alive in a week or even a month time. Life is not promised and even if you loath living just know that's the destination for us all.

Take each day at a time and make a decision on what's best for you.

Sending you light and healing your way as always