I hope this is how it feel to ctb.

[shaggy_dooo]

I am 26 yrs old never really had a job in my life only had like 2 only for a short time and never got to keep em never really made money im not special nor good at anything i had a psychotic episode triggered by harrasment i dont have the balls to end this life but i am constantly worried and think about death everyday as the damage done to me from this harrasment feels irreversible been to the doctor psychiatrists psychologists and nothing changes anything i still feel bad about it and i cant function which has led me to be jobless and being dependent on my parents i stay in my room i watch cases like that lady lacey fletcher and i relate how much life can neglect you i just hope this is how it feels at the end when i ctb i hope i go to a better place than this fucked up world that never wanted to spare me shit not even a decent death but isolated and alone and neglected i tried killing myself and only got me sick i am miserable everyday. Ima not say stay strong ima say stay fucking high too high to care.