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Venting I have waited long enough for things to improve.

oxymoron

oxymoron

Arcanist
Jul 18, 2019
439
I have waited long enough for things to improve but things have only fallen off the shelf. I have no other option left other than to CTB.

"History Will Absolve Me" - Fidel Castro
 
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randomz

randomz

Specialist
Nov 4, 2019
395
Have you tried actively to get better? Even with big changes such as moving/switching jobs etc.? I don't know your situation but still this could help. I hope things get better for you soon :)
 
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oxymoron

oxymoron

Arcanist
Jul 18, 2019
439
Gave a lot of interviews about 100. All rejects.
 
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ctbUniquectb

Pariah
Jan 7, 2020
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Dead beat dad

Dead beat dad

Enlightened
Mar 5, 2019
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oxymoron said:
I have waited long enough for things to improve but things have only fallen off the shelf. I have no other option left other than to CTB.

"History Will Absolve Me" - Fidel Castro
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Brother I feel your pain on the interview front. That's one of those things that will crush you inside so easily.
I'm so sorry, I don't have anything useful to say other than I'm sorry for your situation.
I know you're in a dark place else you wouldn't be here (as in this forum) but for what it's worth I sincerely hope you can find some light.
Respect brother
DBD
 
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randomz

randomz

Specialist
Nov 4, 2019
395
I hope things get better for you. Change can come at anytime if you just hold on. In the meantime, you can try distracting yourself and gettinig some rest for your mind.
 
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Cutepoison

Losing all hope was freedom
Dec 22, 2019
191
I know the feeling...i dread going to my therapist cuz she'll ask again how I'm doing, and I'm like - ok, I'm going on one last holiday, i know nothing will improve so when I'm back i want out. But i can't be honest, cuz then it's hospital :/ fuck.
 
oxymoron

oxymoron

Arcanist
Jul 18, 2019
439
Dead beat dad said:
Brother I feel your pain on the interview front. That's one of those things that will crush you inside so easily.
I'm so sorry, I don't have anything useful to say other than I'm sorry for your situation.
I know you're in a dark place else you wouldn't be here (as in this forum) but for what it's worth I sincerely hope you can find some light.
Respect brother
DBD
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Doesn't stop there bro. Had tinnitus since 2011. Never considered it a problem. But life kept giving me more gifts like IBS, depression and BPD. Travelled and interviewed for over 3 months. Took 7 flights per 10-12 days. Never took a break. Got rejected for the stupidest reasons ever, you're overqualified, we can't do your visa, we will consider you for next quarter. Fuck off life. I'll not let you win! I'll quit the game, bitch.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
7,657
I'm sorry to hear about all the rejections from potential employers and the job market itself. I can relate to your pain and only you can decide how much you are willing to tolerate. Anyways, I wish you peace in whatever you choose to do. :hug:
 
oxymoron

oxymoron

Arcanist
Jul 18, 2019
439
thrw_a_way1221221 said:
I'm sorry to hear about all the rejections from potential employers and the job market itself. I can relate to your pain and only you can decide how much you are willing to tolerate. Anyways, I wish you peace in whatever you choose to do. :hug:
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Dude. Tolerating everything since Nov 2018.
 
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BadRNG

Conflicted
Jan 11, 2020
58
oxymoron said:
I have waited long enough for things to improve but things have only fallen off the shelf. I have no other option left other than to CTB.

"History Will Absolve Me" - Fidel Castro
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Entering my fifth year... it's so much worse now..
 
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BadRNG

Conflicted
Jan 11, 2020
58
oxymoron said:
Yeah, 2nd for me.
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They legalized assisted suicide in Germany last week but I don't know the process nor am I sure if they will even allow me to do that since I am 18
 
oxymoron

oxymoron

Arcanist
Jul 18, 2019
439
BadRNG said:
They legalized assisted suicide in Germany last week but I don't know the process nor am I sure if they will even allow me to do that since I am 18
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18 way too young. Also you need shit loads of paper work that might range over 1-2 years IG.
 
oxymoron

oxymoron

Arcanist
Jul 18, 2019
439
I am tired of sleeping 12 hours a day, playing cards online and driving on the interstate for no reason. There is nothing else left in life and to live for. Fuck this. I do not deserve this senseless suffering.
 
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AlreadyGone

AlreadyGone

Taking it day by day
Jan 11, 2020
917
You are not alone in feeling that way. I truly understand that feeling.
 
oxymoron

oxymoron

Arcanist
Jul 18, 2019
439
AlreadyGone said:
You are not alone in feeling that way. I truly understand that feeling.
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Yeah, living this life one shitty fucking day at a time. Idk what I did so wrong in my life.
 
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ctbUniquectb

Pariah
Jan 7, 2020
489
randomz said:
It could be yes, but the way I see it chances are always 50/50.
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Sure, but we're not learning the gambler's fallacy in Statistics and Probability class. IRL, shit has been on a persistent down turn for me since birth: well over 3 decades.
 
randomz

randomz

Specialist
Nov 4, 2019
395
ctbUniquectb said:
Sure, but we're not learning the gambler's fallacy in Statistics and Probability class. IRL, shit has been on a persistent down turn for me since birth: well over 3 decades.
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I feel your pain. But maybe now is the time that things start getting better.
 
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