I have everything I need

[helloitsme]

SN, all the other meds, etc. I just don't know how/when to plan. I also don't even know if I want SN to be my method, it doesn't seem peaceful after reading goodbye threads. But at least I have things. I have been in a hole for 8 months and just don't see things getting better - no light at the end of the tunnel feeling. I know I will hurt a lot of people if/when I CTB but I already feel completely disconnected from the world. I'm not the person I was to those people anymore so I feel like I am already gone.

Still thinking about Nitrogen as an alternative, just seems infinitely more peaceful than all the things that can go wrong with SN.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

I'm not saying SN is absolutely foolproof, but the problem with inert gas is that you can end up being brain damaged. As I understand SN is in no way going to lead to that specific outcome. Granted, the exit bag is much more peaceful way to go, but the process of getting everything done right seems to be quite intricate. I believe you should really think things through, take into consideration all the pros and cons of both of the methods.

 

[helloitsme]

I'm not saying SN is absolutely foolproof, but the problem with inert gas is that you can end up being brain damaged. As I understand SN is in no way going to lead to that specific outcome. Granted, the exit bag is much more peaceful way to go, but the process of getting everything done right seems to be quite intricate. I believe you should really think things through, take into consideration all the pros and cons of both of the methods.

From the research I've done the nitrogen method doesn't seem to be that intricate at all if you buy the things from a particular source it all comes pre constructed and a tank of nitrogen isn't that hard for me to acquire. Definitely am thinking things through.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really can be an awful feeling to be trapped in a hopeless situation, I can relate, it is like I have already died in a way. I understand that it can be difficult choosing a method, I would love to just fall into an eternal sleep, I wish it was as easy as that. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

From the research I've done the nitrogen method doesn't seem to be that intricate at all if you buy the things from a particular source it all comes pre constructed and a tank of nitrogen isn't that hard for me to acquire. Definitely am thinking things through.

I know a professional diver, who's very familiar with the process of assembling scuba gear and everything. And even he's a little unsure about using the exit bag. He recognizes that something can go wrong. I hope you will figure things out

 

[helloitsme]

It really can be an awful feeling to be trapped in a hopeless situation, I can relate, it is like I have already died in a way. I understand that it can be difficult choosing a method, I would love to just fall into an eternal sleep, I wish it was as easy as that. I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

Thanks. I can relate to the feeling of having already died. I think there's an afterlife and I think it won't be a great one if I CTB but nonetheless I feel there isn't an alternative.