I have determined my Death Day

[Teepbak]

September 28 is my planned Death Day. I have an autoimmune disease (Narcolepsy), a chronic migraine 24/7 for the past 5+ years, I am dizzy and nauseous all day, and for the past 2 years my legs hurt when I walk. I'm 23 years old but I'm so sick and tired of living like this.

For the next 3 months, I'm going to use everything in my power to get better. I've exhausted so many solutions already, so if these final ideas don't work then I can go out.

 

[All Things Must Pass]

Good luck. What is your chosen method?

 

[Teepbak]

Good luck. What is your chosen method?

Thank you. I want to go out with N. If I can't get it, then SN.

 

[Tav]

Do you believe in life after death? Are you afraid of death?

 

[PaxAmerica]

I havent chosen a day for it. Its a general feeling that a day will come when i will want die though

 

[FuneralCry]

Chronic health problems can ruin our lives, it sounds really exhausting what you are going through. I do hope things get better for you, but if you decide to leave then I wish you peace.

 

[Teepbak]

Do you believe in life after death? Are you afraid of death?

I don't really believe in life after death. I mean, anything is possible but it just doesn't seem realistic to me. I'm about 70/30 on the matter. Am I afraid Of death? Yes, I am. I'm scared to leave this life and miss out on positive experiences. I'm scared it won't be painless. I'm scared of being taken somewhere else after death (kind of like hell). I'm scared of being found and saved. I'm scared that I may ruin my family's life with my death. But, I think I am more scared to be alive at this point.

How about you?

Chronic health problems can ruin our lives, it sounds really exhausting what you are going through. I do hope things get better for you, but if you decide to leave then I wish you peace.

Thank you. What you said means a lot.

 

[Bullit]

I wish you luck in your program to get better. Lets hope you progress to the point where you can delay your ctb again. Whatever happens, as the song says,I wish you well!!!!

 

[Tav]

I believe in afterlife. I am afraid of death, of unknown ,

 

[seamus]

I feel bad for you that you have terrible daily pain I hope you find release from this existence you have been given at some stage in the future

 

[Teepbak]

I wish you luck in your program to get better. Lets hope you progress to the point where you can delay your ctb again. Whatever happens, as the song says,I wish you well!!!!

Thank you. If I can fix these medical issues I would be so much better off. I would love to keep living. I would love to experience life; a girl, friends, school, even work, everything. Only with this pain it's not possible.
Thanks again.

I feel bad for you that you have terrible daily pain I hope you find release from this existence you have been given at some stage in the future

Thank you. My only wish is for my family and friends to not be broken by my ctb.