So financial issues are one of my primary reasons why I want to ctb. But since I am a nursing case we get more money. It is not much but maybe enough to survive.
I read an article in a news magazine about financial support for victims of sexual abuse in Germany. I wondered whether such support exists for domestic violence as child.
And indeed it exists. My mom abused the shit out of me. But there are issues.
You can get a shit lot of money if your case is accepted. But it is very difficult to get accepted.
There are two main points: You have to prove it happened. I talked a lot with my therpapists about it. It is writen in one clinic document. There was a discussion between me and my mom with a doctor. And she denied that it happened. But usually they know the perpetrator lies about it. Maybe either my dad or sister have to be witnesses. But both are stupid as shit. My dad lies to me (and maybe to himself) that he never witnessed it. He is extremely stupid. But my whole family knew it. All of them witnessed it. My sister is such a fucking piece of shit on this issue. My sister hit me in my face during my first psychosis to get a clear mind again. Bro she learned that from my mom. I hope so much she will never have children. She also told me if the hits bothered me this much why didn't I hit her back? I hope they believe my story without witnesses because these morons won't help me. I could see that my sister will deny it. And lie about it but then I will spill the tea that she hit me too. Good that I write everything down. I checked the chat with my sister where she admitted the violence. So she cannot deny it or if she denies it she will be in legal trouble.
One problem is usually the state takes the money from the perpetrator but only if this isn't a disadvantage for the victim. But it would be exactly that. My mom is financing me and if they take the money from my mom I will have not income anymore.
Next problem my mom might lose her job. I will wait for this application until she is dead. I will also talk to a lawyer how good my chances are. If I get it I get up to 30.000 Euros at once. And up to 2000 Euros per month till the rest of my life. In most cases less money. Depending on how traumatized you are. And well I score pretty high at this test.
Last problem. Causality has to be proven. I would ask my therapists to write something that causality is given. And for everyone who knows my story the connection is obvious. My mom beat me up to improve my performance at school. And now any pressure to perform at a job or college overwhelms and paralyzes me.
I hope these resources still exist when I will need it. But it gives me some hope. Even though its difficult to get.
I read an article in a news magazine about financial support for victims of sexual abuse in Germany. I wondered whether such support exists for domestic violence as child.
And indeed it exists. My mom abused the shit out of me. But there are issues.
You can get a shit lot of money if your case is accepted. But it is very difficult to get accepted.
There are two main points: You have to prove it happened. I talked a lot with my therpapists about it. It is writen in one clinic document. There was a discussion between me and my mom with a doctor. And she denied that it happened. But usually they know the perpetrator lies about it. Maybe either my dad or sister have to be witnesses. But both are stupid as shit. My dad lies to me (and maybe to himself) that he never witnessed it. He is extremely stupid. But my whole family knew it. All of them witnessed it. My sister is such a fucking piece of shit on this issue. My sister hit me in my face during my first psychosis to get a clear mind again. Bro she learned that from my mom. I hope so much she will never have children. She also told me if the hits bothered me this much why didn't I hit her back? I hope they believe my story without witnesses because these morons won't help me. I could see that my sister will deny it. And lie about it but then I will spill the tea that she hit me too. Good that I write everything down. I checked the chat with my sister where she admitted the violence. So she cannot deny it or if she denies it she will be in legal trouble.
One problem is usually the state takes the money from the perpetrator but only if this isn't a disadvantage for the victim. But it would be exactly that. My mom is financing me and if they take the money from my mom I will have not income anymore.
Next problem my mom might lose her job. I will wait for this application until she is dead. I will also talk to a lawyer how good my chances are. If I get it I get up to 30.000 Euros at once. And up to 2000 Euros per month till the rest of my life. In most cases less money. Depending on how traumatized you are. And well I score pretty high at this test.
Last problem. Causality has to be proven. I would ask my therapists to write something that causality is given. And for everyone who knows my story the connection is obvious. My mom beat me up to improve my performance at school. And now any pressure to perform at a job or college overwhelms and paralyzes me.
I hope these resources still exist when I will need it. But it gives me some hope. Even though its difficult to get.
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