Venting I hate to be poor

[Galam]

Poverty is the main reason for so many to ctb. You can't do anything and if you have no skills, you stay poor but nothing of this is your fault.

I cannot afford the lyrics-to-song ai tools I need to create the music album I wish I could produce.

Or I cannot afford the prompt-to-image ai tools.

the things I have access to don't help me because I don't have the skill - I can't build it - to use them.

After I was abused in asylum 2024 I also cannot even play games on my laptop really because always the flashbacks come in and break my thinking process. I just tried to find cheats and I am so happy that I found some who work for the games I wanted to play. Otherwise I could not enjoy them.

I was bullied before the asylum 2024 this too always, isolated and I am just traumatized. It is so ill when you are born among poor parents and they are disaled, dumb alcohol addicts.
I am not a pretty woman, I have understood; if you are pretty but poor you have a good chance to become rich and popular just because of your face.

But I just have loser cards. I only wish such a existence to the bullies who made my life so hard.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

I'm sorry for your situation. I'm also poor. It sucks. I will never make it out.
Didn't hit the DNA jackpot with brains or looks. I wish I could have been born with brains.
Pretty fades but brains last.

 

[DirtCommie]

Sorry for any pain youre going through

Also Ya after 30 years of near homelessness(well technically as Im typing this I actually am homeless. Also my mom was homeless when I was born) I am sure that my eternal sadness only stems from living in a condition of eternally dirt broke. I think the studies and video I listed prove me right. EVERY.SINGLE.ONE of my current problems would be solved with just having enough money lol. It has also been found that rates of depression scale with how low your income is too.

https://www.medrxiv.org/content/10.1101/2023.12.04.23299380v1.full ,

I also really like this video because there is a quote that the dude says in the video that goes along the lines of:

"One of the biggest successes of neoliberalism was convincing most people that depression can ONLY result from deranged internal chemical imbalances rather than as normal reaction to external world shittiness lol. For a lot of ' depressed' people youre probably not even depressed at all ! There is the possibility that your body and brain are just reacting to a fucked world where there are some war mongering, greedy , lazy people ( like musk, george bush, ibn mohammad ,modi, trump, etc... ) who have crazy excesses of resources and wealth. Meanwhile a decent, peaceful , hard worker such as yourself has to scrape by with slave wages and practical homelessness. It is.not that 'CliNiCAl dEpREsSiOn DoesNt ExIst', it clearly does exist, its just that sooome people are having a completely normal depressed reaction to unfair inequities they are beaten up by and see every day...and thats OK. The inequities must be dismantled but their reactions are OK. "

This right here is the quote that I live by↑ There is nothing wrong with feeling like youre angry, depressed, hopeless, whatever negative emotion cause of the easily fixable inequities youre surrounded by daily.

There are a dearth of therapists who acknowledge that someone is literally not depressed in clinical terms . Theyre just dirt broke, ostracized and this results in their current sadness....that's it ! lol! I feel that this is by design cause so many therapists would have to acknowledge that " they alone cannot help this depressed person in front of them with clinical methods or drugs but rsther this person can only be helped through systematic changes that gives them human rights that ensure they have access to things to ...well... make them human again . Like a home. And a living wage.And a community that doesnt ostracize them based on how low their income is . And the ability to afford health care or mental health care when they need it. And the ability to afford time off when they need it....That's it!"